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Iheartcupcakes

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About Iheartcupcakes

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  • Birthday March 4

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    Female
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    Reading, baking (hence my username :), becoming fluent in Spanish, social justice issues, singing, playing with my dog, Pepper, and fostering adoptable dogs.

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  1. My friend!!!!! :throb:

    1. aftersilence1

      aftersilence1

      I missed you, @Iheartcupcakes! It's good to be back. :hug:

    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Same!!! I'm sorry I am such an awful keeper-in-toucher, lol. 

  2. Trying to Help after the Rape Kit

    I would really like to help you. I had a horrific SANE/ER experience and I really want to help make things better for others. Please message me if you would like.
  3. DeadPool 2 and the Awkward Sight

    I am so glad Yes...I am so thankful it wasn't the monster. Thank you, friend. I am sorry to say you are probably right.
  4. DeadPool 2 and the Awkward Sight

    I am so sorry you had that experience, but glad you weren't alone. Your boyfriend seems supportive and I am thankful for that, too. I know how it feels..I often see family members of the monster I put in prison for life and they hate me. They know he is guilty. They saw all of the evidence and heard him admit it. It's a punch to the gut. I am so sorry you went through that.
  5. I am counting getting out of bed today as a major victory. I just wanted to stay home where people cannot attack me. I forced myself to go to work which was no easy feat. An article came out in a magazine this weekend for which I interviewed. I will post it. I got great feedback but of course you have to deal with the usual ignorance, too. Things like this always drain me and I don't know why. There were some issues with people on Facebook and I am just feeling too vulnerable right now. I feel like I just need to hide away at home and avoid people, even online. 

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    2. ActivistAlly
    3. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Thank you all for the hugs and support. I think I need April to be over. 

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Couldn't agree more I hate this month. :hug: 

  6. My heart is in pain

    I am so very sorry for what happened to you and to your daughter. It's not fair or right. I am so sorry you are hurting. You are not alone, and neither is your daughter. We all know how it hurts and will be here to offer you support and the hope you seek. May I ask if you have any resources available to you where you are, such as a crisis center? I will tell you for myself that seeing a counselor/therapist has been a lifeline. Is that a possibility for you and your daughter? Supporting you! Amy
  7. Sad. Had a guy pursuing me that I thought was a good one. I took a chance and opened up to him, which I said I would never do again. But he just played with me. And he knows what happened. I feel more alone than ever right now. 

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    2. Capulet

      Capulet

      I'm so sorry friend.  Am here if you ever need to vent!!! 

       

    3. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Thank you, @Brooklyn24 I appreciate that!

      @Free2Fly I will be. 

      @Capulet Thank you so much. I meant to tell you that I deleted him and feel like crap now. 

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

  8. Looking for a place to tell my story

    @AKB is correct. I just wanted to say welcome and while I am glad you are here, I am very sorry for what happened to cause you to be.
  9. Male Victim

    Exactly...there is NO gray area and you are NOT to blame.
  10. Male Victim

    I'm so very sorry that happened to you. You're right that it isn't talked about often. You are welcome here. We hear you and we believe you.
  11. I was asked to speak to Arkansas State University at their main campus this week. I have already been to Southern Arkansas University and Texas A&M - Texarkana. I am happy that professors care about educating their students on how to relate to victims. 

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    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I am also glad they care about educating their students, but I am also proud at how much of an advocate you have become. I know for certain that you will do great. :up: 

    3. snmls

      snmls

      This is so great to hear.  Not only am I so inspired by you but it also makes me so happy to see that Universities are putting forth an effort to educate students on this topic. 

    4. StrugglingMama

      StrugglingMama

      ROCKSTAR. I'm gonna need your autograph soon! :throb:

  12. His aunt was at the bank again. I was sitting on the couch waiting on the tellers to complete my deposits. I saw her across the way out of the corner of my eye. I was looking at my phone, so I just continued to do so. I didn't even acknowledge her, although I started to feel sick. I thought she would see me and leave, but she didn't. She pushed her janitor cart all the way across the lobby and walked right in front of me. I could see her continually glancing at me. I never spared her one. I kept texting, and the feeling of fear and helplessness went away. I thought, i don't have to be nice to her anymore. I don't have to be civil. If she addresses me, she'll wish she hadn't. And I felt completely different. Free and capable. Seeing his family is still repulsive, and a gut punch, but it was better. I put a look on my face that said, "Try me, b**ch." She kept walking and disappeared into the bathroom and I didn't see her again. 

    1. Kmkz

      Kmkz

      Your strength and determination is amazing. So happy for you that you didn't let her get to you and the feelings caused by his family are improving.

    2. Ian37

      Ian37

      Amy, this is just getting to be absolutely ridiculous. I am so sorry that these wastes of space continue trying to confront you. Good for you for not engaging in what she was trying to start. You do not owe her nor anyone else anything at all. Life is simply way too short to go out of your way being nice to those who are always disrespectful who'll go to any lengths just to start some trouble.

      :luck:

    3. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Thank you @Kmkz. I appreciate that so much. I think it just hit me that I can be a b**ch to her and that's okay. I am always so focused on being nice, not making a scene, keeping the peace, etc. I was just like, you know what?? NO. I don't HAVE to be nice to her! It was really freeing. 

      @Ian37 It is. She had better stay away. I will continue to simply ignore her as long as she doesn't actively try to speak to me again. 

  13. Quote
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    "Rape, by definition, cannot be asked for." How many times have I said that? How many times must those words be repeated? I will keep saying them until every victim blamer is silent. 

    100% agree @Iheartcupcakes

    I don´t know who brought up this damn view that someone "asked for it". I heard similar things in many situations. :notalone::angry::ThankYou:

     

  14. "Rape, by definition, cannot be asked for." How many times have I said that? How many times must those words be repeated? I will keep saying them until every victim blamer is silent. 

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    2. GaleH

      GaleH

      If she was asking for it why can't he 

    3. GaleH

      GaleH

      Triggering!

      I was thinking about this subject today. I was thinking. Hmm what if the definition of rape is described like this.

      the current way it is described is like this: Rape: a sexual act carried out against a persons will. 

      I think it should be changed to: rape:  a sexual act carried out when there is a power imbalance. Changing the against someone's will to power imbalance makes it harder to question whether or not she "wanted it". 

      Because you can't question whether or not there's a power imbalanc. And if there isn't a power imbalance, then it isn't consentual. 

      Power imbalances are in many forms, triggering!!!!!!!!!!!:

      when someone is awake while the other is asleep

      when someone has a weapon and forces someone's body to go where they want, 

      similar to a weopon, when someone's body is forced to be at a school or workplace and they can't leave and a teacher or boss is sexual 

      one person has lots of money and controls it, the other person doesn't and needs it 

       

      You get the idea 

    4. GaleH

      GaleH

      Typo: if there is a power imbalance than it isn't consentual 

      Also, an age difference can be a power imbalance too 

  15. Just waiting. Waiting for the defense to attack and call me a liar once more. They picked up the transcript from pretrial hearings...not the actual trial. They did that on 12/6. It's 12/20 and they have yet to file their brief on what they are supposedly entitled to an appeal for. I am constantly nauseated. 

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    2. Ian37

      Ian37

      Amy, that is quite the attitude to have! No matter what way these losers try spinning it, you have the truth on your side. The justice system is a joke. That being said. Your strength still happens to show through your fear.

      :luck:

    3. StrugglingMama

      StrugglingMama

      You'd think one ass-kicking by you would be enough for them. 

    4. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Thank you, @Ian37

      @StrugglingMama You would think!! I didn't just put him away...I buried him. And his pathetic, lying lawyers in the media, no less. I sometimes have to be silly sometimes to make it...I have the Home Alone scene in my mind now where Kevin says, "Do you give up now? Or are you thirsty for more??!" 

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