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wolfennights

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About wolfennights

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    Trans, She and Her Pronouns Please

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    Female
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    Midwest, USA
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    Computer Programming

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  1. might be facing homelessness and car-lessness in December, week before finals week of my last semester of my Bachelor's.

    1. snmls

      snmls

      I'm sorry to hear this.  I hope it doesn't get to that point.

    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I'm sorry this is a possibility. Sending positive thoughts for many good things to you. :hug: 

    3. Fireflies

      Fireflies

      Praying that you'll have a safe place to stay, reliable transportation and that you ace your finals!  

  2. 3 nights of hell, immortality spell

    Light up the sky, make it through the darkness

    The wind will blow, our fire will burn again

    1. wolfennights

      wolfennights

      Source is Blood Tears Dust by Lacuna Coil. Video can be really triggering, but I personally find it cathartic.

  3. anyone available to talk or send affirming messages? i keep repeating in my head that what i went thru wasnt that bad. It's like im in denial again. I dont feel like i was ever innocent. I dont even think i know what innocence means. 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Denial is sadly common. You were hurt and that is and never will be right. You were innocent and if you don't feel it anymore, it just means it was stolen from you. :hammer:

      You never deserved this, but you deserve to heal, wolfennights.

      Sitting with you. :hug: to spare, if ok.

    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      You are totally innocent. Wolfen. TOTALLY. There is literally NOTHING you could do to make someone be evil. There is nothing you could do or have done to make someone hurt you. That is THEIR choice, and it is THEIR fault alone. 

      Denial is common...so is minimization. We can't say your trauma wasn't "that bad," because comparing trauma is inaccurate. Trauma is trauma is trauma. All that matters is how you feel, and all of your feelings are valid. :throb:

    3. wolfennights

      wolfennights

      @MeBeMary and @Iheartcupcakes thank you. I have since gotten back in touch with the vindication and retribution thanks to heavy metal. ❤️

  4. got told that i "flaunt my trauma" tonight.

    1. Capulet

      Capulet

      I hope you laughed at their ignorance and stupidity.  That's what comments like that are chalked up to.  Please don't take them seriously.  Instead, you keep your head held up high, hang in there, and talk about whatever it is you need to talk about. You deserve to heal, and sometimes, the only way we can is to discuss it and give it the attention it warrants. :throb:  Sending hugs.

    2. snmls

      snmls

      I'm sorry.  That was a really insensitive thing for someone to say.  

  5. Turns out wanting to be someone's Knight in Shining Armor is just codependency in disguise!

  6. anyone else hate being told "i love you"?

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hug :hug: if ok?

      im sorry it's like that for u.

    2. EmptyInside

      EmptyInside

      I can just about cope with my parents (safe peoples who I live with) telling me occasionally that they love me, my brothers could probably get away with it if it was an emotional time. But anyone else? Heck no, I hate it! It makes me feel really awkward and put on the spot. My ex used to tell me he loved me (he was a bad man) and used to make me say it back. But my awkwardness and refusal to say I loved anyone stemmed from much earlier... I don’t feel many emotions and the ones I do feel are rarely strong enough to act on (schizoid personality disorder).

      I hate being told someone loves me partly because it is expected for you to return the sentiments (and love is sadly not an affection I feel so it would be a lie or at least an empty gesture) and partly because it makes me cringe and feel really anxious.

    3. Capulet

      Capulet

      Can definitely understand that!  I think, for me, it depends on the person. 

      Be gentle with yourself.  Here if you ever need to talk.

  7. More nightmares this semester, almost daily...

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok? 

  8. For those that need it, this is a very relaxing video with instrumental music set to shots of baby animals in nature. Perfect for your inner child.
    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VzrHvwWjXEs

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Hey :) , will check it out when I get a bit of time.

      how u? Hope ur doing ok :) 

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    2. wolfennights

      wolfennights

      Oh, sorry, i posted a message saying hi but it felt too forward so i tried to delete it. I like your name tho.

    3. Rikusgrl

      Rikusgrl

      Ohhhh hi 😊

    4. wolfennights

      wolfennights

      hi, sorry, i didnt see this til now. But yeah, my message was me complimenting your username cus im a fan of Kingdom Hearts 2 and see Riku's struggle with the darkness as a metaphor for trauma.

  10. I want to be someones favorite...

  11. I just read your story. I just want to extend my sympathies and say that you are very strong. But I understand that the strength you showed enduring that was out of necessity. It never should have happened to you and I am proud of you for sharing it no matter how painful it is. It's ok to not be strong all the time. 

  12. I was born tired 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Born tired? 

      Zzz....zzzz lol safe hugs :hug: 

      hope your doing okay?

    2. Kmkz

      Kmkz

      sending some energy your way.

    3. 8888
  13. It's not your fault your friends left you. Its not your fault your brother became addicted to drugs or that your dog passed away. I know you hung out with those two girls because you so badly wanted to be them, to walk in their shoes, to be a real girl. Your worth isn't based on what she thinks of you. Her deciding to be friends with the bullies or let her brother hit you with a stick was not okay. It doesnt matter if they were only playing, those things hurt and she didn't seem to care. But trust me, you are a real girl deep down, and there is an amazing group of women friends waiting for you down the road.
  14. I feel like a lot of growing up is learning to take care of your inner child.

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      I would think so too , :( I'm not so good at taking care of mine.

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