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Hawkgirl

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About Hawkgirl

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    Survivor Warrior

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    Female
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    Thanagarian Homeworld
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    Photography, Writing, Reading, Books, Sci-Fi, Comic Books, Baseball and other geeky goodness. Music, ASL, Meditation, Prayer, Retreats, Mountains and Opera.

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  1. Greetings & Salutations

    Hi. Schnitzel, Welcome to AS. Family and friends don’t understand the aftermath. They see it as that was then and this is now. Sometimes I think they would understand if it were something that happened to them. It is most unfair as we try to come to terms with the pain we feel inside and the aftermath too. Their perspective only adds to the pain. I am sorry for all you have experienced. I have found this space to be very supportive and have learned a few things along the way. I hope you find the same as well.
  2. Trouble Uploading Profile and Cover Pics

    Loading a profile pic is done differently. Let me see if I can find the post on it. I have not figured out how to do a cover pic. Gravatar is the way to upload a profile pic.
  3. Hello

    Hello @someone934 Welcome to AS. It is a very caring and supportive community here.
  4. @JustSam Thank you for writing this. When I first read this I thought about everything I had been through. I knew what they did was deliberate. It wasn't anything they accidentally did and it wasn't a bunch of child's play. I think the thing I think about the most is what would my life had been like had I not gone through that. I had held on to dreams of marriage and family and even after being proposed to I turned the guy down. In retrospect, my family should have been there. My mother should have thought for herself and not listened to her often drunken and high husband. I wonder what I would have been like. I know what I am like now. I see where I have grown. I see where I still need to grow.
  5. @limbodante No, you aren't an idiot for wanting things to be better than they were. She didn't treat you right. She hurt you. When we look at things in retrospect, it is always so many red flags because hindsight is crystal clear. Please be good to yourself.
  6. New here

    Hi Izz, Welcome to AS.
  7. Hi I'm Mary

    @msmary Welcome to AS.
  8. First I need to apologize for not replying to anyone on the show of support for my last blog entry. My thoughts were jumbled together and I was unable to really say much. The visit with the surgeon was in short devastating. His decision to call the transplant coordinator was equally painful. My tears have now dried and I am no longer thinking of quitting so I can at least write a little now. The thought of waiting two years is a bit much. I don't have the energy to wait that long. I sort of thought that might be the response of the transplant team. Still I am in the process of processing everything. I have gone silent IRL and with the exception of the occasional email, I don't really say much of anything. I hurt a lot right now but it is lessening some. I am fidgeting a lot more so I am employing my spinners more frequently. I am debating speaking to my doctor about anxiety meds but I don't know about that just yet. I have to do more research on it. I will likely need to find something I am not allergic to as well. I am finding this process a bit taxing. I am not going to quit. I am going to keep swinging for the fences.
  9. Been thinking about you :hug:

    1. Hawkgirl

      Hawkgirl

      @patriciag  Thank you.  Sending you hugs.  Praying for you too. :hug:

  10. Then the Surgeon Said

    I did follow up yesterday from the surgery I had for cancer. Much to my surprise, his tune was far different than that of the endocrinologist. She was upbeat, optimistic and looking forward to me being transplanted. My visit with the surgeon deep sixed those plans and I was taken aback. The cancer wasn't contained to the thyroid as originally thought. It had spread to the lymph nodes. Now it is a matter of getting those nodes removed. To say I was blown away is an understatement. I cried. We were totally unprepared for this. Completely and totally unprepared. Now hearing that they are fiddling with health care it makes me wonder if we are headed for another Great Depression. I have spent the better part of the day trying to process yesterday's doctor's visit. It was overwhelming and I am searching for the bright spot in this. I know there is a bright spot. It is still treatable. It is not hopeless or useless. It is going to be ok. Things just hurt right now. So next step, more surgery followed by radiation.
  11. Hi I'm new 👋

    Hi Queenie, Welcome to AS! There is always someone listening here like the others have said.
  12. Just Want To Be Happy

    Sending you safe hugs.
  13. Powerful,

    I was wondering how you are.  Just wanted say hi.  Hope you are well.  Sending you safe hugs if ok :hug:

  14. Sixth Grade Gang Fight, Crippled Dogs, Ducks, and Dicks

    @BreakMyShell , Wonderfullly written but I must disagree with you on one aspect, you are not a loser. I am sorry that kid was so rude and disrespectful to you. It takes special people to work with children. If no one else tells you, you are a hero.
  15. It's kelliah992. I thought about your post all day and even looked it up. You are right about your post. I just don't know if that changes anything for me.

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