Hello, @Out of the Ashes, welcome to AS. It is very hard to open up after holding so tightly to your story for so long. I didn’t tell any of my story for 10/15 years and only then a statement to a friend. It has taken me an additional 15 years to be able to start to loosen my grip. The supportive group here at AS has been a huge encouragement to me in that. All that said, please take your time to feel comfortable here. Look around. Read other’s posts. Reply as feels safe to you. Telling your story is always for you and your choice. No one here will rush you ... & AS will be here for you when you’re ready to share. It is ok to take some time to get to know us and feel safe.