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  1. Love your snowflake! So beautiful 💜

    1. 8888


      Thank you, your cat is nice too!  💜

  2. @Little Bo-PeepB I'm sorry for the trauma you experienced. I also have intractable seizures, temporal lobe/complex partial with secondary generalization. I understand the frustration and fears associated with being vulnerable. I always get an aura/warning, but can't tell how much time I have before the seizure. I'm glad you found After Silence. 💚
  3. feralcat

    Just tired

    Please listen to your self and do what you need to do to take good care of yourself. That is the highest priority. 💜💜💜
  4. You rock Cap! Please keep spreading the word and we will each do the same... And Please consider teaching or public policy administration (hoping that's the right phrase for the folks who can formulate the rules and oversight for fixing the damn system), and All of us will work to raise our voices and relentlessly demand that the broken system be fixed! feralcat
  5. @Enigma87 I totally agree with Viceless -- this man abused his power. As kids we're taught to respect and obey authority figures like teachers. He took advantage of you. He coerced and pressured you into doing what he wanted. He didn't care that you said no. This man is a predator. I think it's important to separate the physical and emotional stuff. The human body is built to respond to sexual stimulation. He tried to use your physical responses to "prove" that meant that you emotionally wanted to have sex. Don't buy into that. You walked in the room saying "no". He ignored yo
  6. Thank you so much for your support and kindness 

  7. Not sure where to put this, an idea for a writing topic:

    How do you evolve enough that when you hear the phrase "self care" you don't immediately roll your eyes, shake your head, and make the finger-down-the-throat vomit hand gestures?

    1. Capulet


      😂  Ohhhh, I know that gesture ALL too well. Hahaha.  I'm definitely writing this one down!!!  

    2. sweetfeather5


      Ah yes, the corny language that tends to surround mental health 😂

  8. Hi Samantha,

    Just checking in to see how you're doing today... I hope the day is going a little better for you. :)Feel free to pm me any time. And take good care of yourself.

    Hugs!  :hug:


    1. samantha2009


      I have had a pretty decent day so far. I really am craving alcohol but I am trying so hard to push that from my mind ! :(

      Thank you for being a wonderful, caring person @feralcat 💜


      sam 🖤

  9. Hi @samantha2009 

    I don't really know all the rules here about blogs and if it's ok to respond to blogs or if they're more personal space or something... But I wanted to tell you that I read your blog. I am so so sorry for all of the trauma you experienced. You are such a strong survivor. I'm so glad you got away from that twisted piece of shit. You deserve to have a happy peaceful life... I hope you have a wonderful caring trauma therapist to guide you on your healing journey. Take good care of yourself. :hug:

    Sending you safe hugs and comforting light,


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    2. feralcat


      @samantha2009 I see you. I hear you. I believe you. 

      You are not alone.

      You can breathe...

      You are a strong and resilient survivor. Believe in your capacity to heal. I do. 

      Feel free to message me anytime. 



    3. samantha2009


      @feralcat thank you so much. Your words and the fact you’re willing to be there for me means everything to me. 

      I felt so alone for so long with this and now I really feel like a weight has been lifted off of my chest :thanks:


    4. feralcat



      You are not alone. :notalone:

      Sending you a happy dancing dog to also keep you company



  10. Hi Silence,

    I don't know the details of what you went thru as a kid or what your children experienced. But you are grappling with complicated thoughts and feelings, which have immense ramifications for you and your family. Justice is a a murky, elusive, complex concept. Many levels. Many different belief systems. But pretty basic at it's core: We live in a society and we are all connected, so if an individual commits morally reprehensible acts that harm others then there should be negative consequences, commensurate with the destructive force and consequences of his/her actions. Philosophers in every culture have wrestled with this idea since the dawn of civilization. Or at least when our frontal lobes evolved enough to create these thoughts. Since then a lot of amazing thought has been put into this. By folks with more gray matter than most dozen people. It's worth reading some philosophy books to explore the subject. The issue can be consuming. Justice, revenge, killing a sexual predator to prevent future victims. Unintended negative aftermath to victims/survivors. Sadness. Guilt. Children horrified when they learn that the abuse they experienced led their father to become a murderer. Impossible-to-predict consequences...

    You may want to avoid considering feelings and emotions. Focusing on moral justice and possible courses of action is cleaner, less messy. You may not want to hear people tell you that killing a person is wrong. And that you are a good person and should not kill.

    My thoughts about your situation are slightly different. I am a pacifist but I understand anger, pain, revenge, preventative strike. I don't think you need to hear that right now. So I will ask you the simple questions that someone else asked me 25 years ago. Not long after a brutal kidnapping and 3 days of torture and sexual violence. Before I became a pacifist. The questions that I initially dismissed as trivial. Then they kept popping up. At odd times of day and night. Haunting me until I paid attention to them. Which I reluctantly did. And later the questions became life-changing. I suspect that you will be tempted to disregard them as irrelevant distractions as well...

    The questions are simple:  

    What are you doing with your energy?

    Where are you focusing your power? 

    Are you doing absolutely everything possible to heal yourself (and your children) or are you distracting yourself with other issues?


    Some things to think about maybe. 

    I wish you well.


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    2. feralcat


      My words may be irritating or off-base or unhelpful... My experiences may not be that similar to yours... But I have no disrespect or judgment. I've wandered in many dark places. I'm writing from a place of compassion and good intentions. If that isn't clear then that is my failing.


    3. Silence Is Golden

      Silence Is Golden

      It's clear (maybe it's me that's not).

      I don't think I agree with all that you say. But that doesn't mean you are wrong. It means we might  have different opinions, that's all.

      Any and everyone on this site who has spoken to me, including yourself have done so with my best interest at heart. I know that.

      You have not irritated me, I'll be honest and say I'm not sure what off base means and your honest attempt to help me is in its self, helpful.

      I meant that I want to reply but I don't find putting thoughts into actual words easy and it's important to me that I don't mess up (although I now feel that my first attempt to say that was, in its self, a mess up).

      You didn't just take the time to read my dribble, you took the time to try and help. Thank you.


    4. feralcat


      Hi Silence,

      Glad my good intentions came thru...

      I've always thought that words are clumsy tools for us humans to use to try to express complex thoughts and feelings.... But until we come up with something more accurate, words will have to do... We are all coming from different worlds, and we're bound to have different interpretations and opinions on things... 

      "Off-base" as I used it was meant to say perhaps-not-very- relevant or applicable to your situation. Not sure of the words origins.

      No worries on my side about saying the 'wrong' thing... I am a first class verbal- and written- muddler myself. God bless the EDIT button! And you can always add an addendum if you think you weren't clear... Whatever is good for you. 

      Hope the skies above you right now are clear blue... (Or moon-lit if youve got night going on)


  11. Hi Invisible,

    Sounds like you're having a rough day. I'm glad you got to talk w your therapist but sounds like it was a pretty short conversation. What's going on w her schedule? Can't you at least get an appt scheduled, even if it's not for this week? I would hate that uncertainty too... Are there things she could suggest to help you until you meet? Or maybe an emergency back-up plan?

    Sleep deprivation is pretty awful. It makes everything feel so much harder to handle. I hope that you were able to nap a little today. And I hope that you can get some good sleep tonight. 

    Hang in there Invisible1. There are lots of folks here who care about you and are rooting for you. :throb:

    Sending you lots of peaceful comforting energy


    1. Invisible1


      Thanks. She is working as a crisis administrator in a hospital setting, so starting this week she is working swing shift. Because there’s such a shortage of trauma therapists with masters degrees, her job pulled her from therapy to this position, which is i guess better for her but more complicated for us, as we have to figure out how and where to meet. Because of my past experience with abandonment by my t we are trying to figure something out so i do not have to change to a different t. 

    2. feralcat


      Oh that sounds like it's going to make scheduling challenging... Hang in there Invisible :console:

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