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Poppy_

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About Poppy_

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    You don't have to be perfect to be loved.

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  1. Feels so good to be home from the hospital ♥️ Missed you all! 

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    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Hope you are feeling better. :flowers:

    3. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      Welcome home, Poppy! I hope you're doing better. Sending you safe hugs and well wishes. ❤️ 

    4. Doll6

      Doll6

      Glad you are home again. Welcome back 

  2. I hope I don’t wake up tomorrow. 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      I'm sorry your suffering, sitting with you if ok?

    2. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      Sorry to contradict your feelings, Poppy, but I DO hope you wake up tomorrow. I hope that you wake up, and tomorrow is a good day, and that days get better for you...you deserve better days. You deserve love and kindness and support. Sending you tons of support and strength. :comfort:

    3. Field8

      Field8

      I do hope you do my friend. I know things are shitty but they can only get better. Please take safe care of yourself.

  3. Poppy_

    Empty

    Hey. It’s been a while. I think something is wrong. I don’t know what, exactly. I just feel so off. I feel disconnected from everything. I feel disconnected from my friends, from my family, from my therapist, from my feelings. I’ve been telling my therapist for weeks that I just feel so numb and empty and I don’t know why. I don’t know how to fix it. I’ve never had a hard time connecting with how I’m feeling. I’ve had issues identifying specific emotions, but I always knew I was feeling SOMETHING. I knew if it was positive or negative. But, now? I feel nothing. I get bad news – nothi
  4. Over Christmas, my mother told me that she thinks I have diabetes. Mind you, I'm overweight, but I don't think it's severe and I'm not obese. But I'm still the biggest person in my family. And my mom tells me all the time how much I need to lose weight. Makes me wonder if she would love me more if I were thinner. 

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    2. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      Oh gosh. That's awful. I'm sorry your mom has said such things to you, Poppy. That is really unkind of her. I can only hope that she loves you no matter your size, and wouldn't only love you if you were thinner. I'm sorry again.

    3. sweetfeather5

      sweetfeather5

      That's horrible! And thin people can get diabetes too, so she's a bit dim. Sorry she said that to you.

    4. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Weight and diabetes are not always related. She should not make such remarks like that. I have been getting rude comments from family members for my weight too over the years, starting when I was a child. I think neither you or me should be put through this. And at Christmas, the time of the year we should rejoice and have a good feast... 

      If your mother would love you more is you lost weight, SHE has a serious problem not you! This is not okay. Also, thinner does not always mean healthier. Sitting if ok?

  5. Can someone PM me to talk? I need some advice and I don't have anyone I can talk to. 

    1. Sunshine02

      Sunshine02

      Hey! I hope everything gets better. I am here for you :) 

    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Hope you managed to find some helpful advice and that your doing well .

  6. Thank you so so much. You have no idea what this comment means to me
  7. I wrote a letter to my mother and I want to share it here. I don't think I'll ever send this to her, but my T suggested that I write it to express how I'm feeling about everything that's been going on lately. So, I decided to post it. Maybe it will encourage someone to write their own. To My Mother, I’m writing to you because I just really don’t understand some things. I have questions and I need answers. I don’t know if you will be able to provide me with any answers because honestly, I don’t know if even you have any. Some things just don’t make sense
  8. Poppy_

    No Title

    This has got to be the hundredth time I’ve started this blog. I just don’t know what to say. I want to write, but I don’t know what to say. It feels like nothing is happening while at the same time, everything is happening. I’m in distress. I’m crying a lot – and I mean a LOT. I’m angry. I’m hurt. But I don’t know how to put any of this on paper and get it out of my head. Everything is wrong. Everything feels so insignificant. I can’t even write because it doesn’t feel safe. Therapy doesn’t feel safe. Nothing feels right. I feel like I’m living in absolute chaos and no one can help m
  9. Hi, @RedSunflower - Welcome to After Silence!! I’m glad you were able to find this forum and I hope that it brings you the comfort and peace you are seeking. I know an anonymous outlet can be hard to come by, but it can also be very helpful. If you need anything at all, feel free to shoot me a message! Wishing you the best of luck here. Best, Poppy
  10. Hi. @blackwidows - Welcome to After Silence! I hope you're finding your way around the site okay. If you need anything, feel free to holler at me! Best, Poppy
  11. I ruin everything. 

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    2. Doll6

      Doll6

      Hope you’re ok @Poppy_

    3. 8888

      8888

      I thought that was my job, lol!  In all seriousness I hope you are okay.  Sitting with you!

    4. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      I hope you are okay 😔 

      🌻🖤

  12. Hi, @Sageharris - Welcome to After Silence! I'm glad you found this community to help you begin your healing journey. I am very sorry to hear of what you've been through, but I hope that this will become a safe space for you to share your story and learn from others. Of course, there's no pressure to share anything you aren't ready to share! Just take your time and post when you feel ready We are very close in age so I hope maybe that makes you feel a little less alone! I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to. Just shoot me a message anytime! Best wishes to you, Poppy
  13. Hi, @Yeenodon - Welcome to After Silence! I'm so happy you found us I'm glad you decided to seek help! I know that can be a very scary first step. I hope you're feeling welcome here. If you need anything at all, I'm here! Feel free to reach out at any time Best wishes, Poppy
  14. I think I need help. 

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    2. Doll6

      Doll6

      Good luck Poppy! 

    3. Poppy_

      Poppy_

      Session went pretty well. The only thing is that it doesn't look like I'm able to get the help I need until I'm ready to change and I'm not sure I'm ready yet. But I'm hoping my T isn't giving up on me yet. 

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: If ok?

      I'm sorry you can get the help you need, hopefully your t will continue to help.

  15. Hi, @Andrea2603 - Welcome back to AS! I hope you're feeling to be back at home here As mentioned above, Help Desk is a great way to get all of your stuff merged so you don't lose old posts! I'm sorry you're having such a hard time right now. I'm sure you know - healing has no timeline. The ups and downs are completely normal. You're safe to feel that here. If you need anything at all, I'm here! Welcome back We're happy you're here. All the best, Poppy
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