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Hi, @Irisdescent_fly - Welcome to After Silence! I am so glad you decided to make your first post here and jump into this community! I think writing a letter to your younger self is a great idea. I recently went to a trauma retreat and that was the first time I ever wrote a letter to my younger self. It was hard and very emotional, but also very cathartic and healing. I, too, like to write! I have a blog here on the site and it has been a fantastic outlet for me. You can always look into that if it's something you're interested in! Anyway, I hope you're finding your place well here

Hi, @Noell2288 - Welcome to After Silence! I am glad you decided to take this leap to share your story. I know it can be a very daunting experience, but know that you have come to a great place to start This community is so supportive and encouraging and I hope you will find your place here quickly. If you ever need anything or have questions, please reach out to me any time! I'm just a message away Wishing you the best, Poppy

@LuluKlu - Welcome to After Silence! I'm so glad you're here I hope you're finding everything okay! If you need any help or need someone to talk to, feel free to message me any time! You're not alone Wishing you all the best, Poppy

Hi, @Lostforsolong - Welcome to After Silence! I'm glad you found us I know sharing your story can be difficult, but this community is full of people that will listen and support you in whatever you decide to share here. If you need anything at all, I'm just a quick message away! Feel free to shoot me a message any time. Again, welcome! Best wishes, Poppy

I find myself obsessed with a lot of things. With blood, with hurt, with the thin lines of pain streaming across my body. But with you? No. I am not obsessed. Even though I can't breathe when you're not around and the sun doesn't shine as bright when you're gone. The birds don't sing and my heart feels heavy in your absence. Music doesn't make sense and words don't rhyme, the sky isn't blue and my heart isn't mine when you're not here. Obsessed? No. I am not obsessed. My brain thinks about things constantly. About the way your eyes squint when you laugh. The way your smile radiates

***The following post has a trigger warning for self harm. Though based on factual events, I am currently 75 days clean from self harm. Please take caution when reading this as it is very graphic and detailed.*** One cut. It's not that deep. The sting is there, the blood trickles, the metal gleams in the light. I think to myself, 'what have I done?', but it's too late to go back now. I press on. The second cut is a bit deeper. There's more blood this time. It bubbles up in dots across the line where I tore my flesh apart. It hurts, but I can't feel anything else.

Hi, @Nc0430 - Welcome to After Silence! I'm sorry you're struggling right now with that person contacting you. I know that's very difficult to deal with. I'm hoping that by being here, you will find support for all of the memories and flashbacks you're dealing with. Sometimes it helps me just to post and let that stuff out instead of holding it in. And when you post here, you will also get feedback from people that understand and support you. Post when you feel comfortable, though. There's no pressure here. If you need anything, I'm just a quick message away any time! Please reach

Hi, @Uhane2 - Welcome to After Silence! This is also the first forum I joined after my SA and I never thought something like this would happen to me either. I understand how sometimes you can feel fine and then the flashbacks hit out of nowhere and send you into a spiral. I can tell you that this is one of the most supportive and uplifting communities I have ever been a part of! I hope that you will find that healing and peace here as well. Just know that you are not on this journey alone and we support you all the way! I'm here if you ever need someone to talk to or have questions

Hi, @Saphira - Welcome to After Silence! I hope you're finding your place well here I know it's hard to face what you've been through, I just want you to know that you're not alone and we all support you here! You don't have to do this by yourself. Something kind of funny... my sister used to have a cat named Saphira! So I feel connected to you already! If you need anything, I'm one message away. Don't hesitate to reach out with questions or for support. Wishing you the best, Poppy

Hi, @Sam3456 - Welcome to After Silence! I know it's hard knowing what to say, especially in your first post. But I am so happy you took that first step in making a post! That's no easy task. I also know how difficult it is to have abuse in your life that you didn't even realize was abuse until later - that happened to me too. I just want you to know that you're not alone and I do understand where you're coming from. We already have quite a bit in common just from what you posted If you need someone to talk to or have questions, my inbox is always open. Send me a message any time!

Hi, @LillieBelle - Welcome to After Silence! I'm sorry you have reason to be here, but I hope we are able to help you on your journey towards healing. I am here if you need anything at all! Feel free to browse the forums and post when you feel ready. There's absolutely no pressure! Wishing you the best, Poppy

Hi, @Lrr1 - Welcome to After Silence! I'm glad you've decided to join this community I know making your first post can be intimidating, so good job on taking that first step! If you need anything, feel free to reach out to me any time! Wishing you all the best, Poppy

Hi, @abcd - Welcome to After Silence! I know it's hard to find the words to say when you first join and it can be a bit intimidating. I hope that you've seen the love and support that comes from our members here and you know that this is a safe place for you to find healing! If you need anything, I'm a quick message away any time Wishing you all the best, Poppy

Hi, @summer2009 - Welcome to After Silence! I'm sorry you've had to go through so much, but I'm hoping that being in this environment with other survivors will be a positive experience for you and you will feel you can begin to share your story when you are ready! I know it can be very intimidating, but we are all here to support you in your healing journey. If you need anything, reach out to me anytime! Best, Poppy

Hi, @Speechless - Welcome to After Silence! I also love your username I'm glad you're here and I hope we can provide a safe space for you to begin to process that life you feel you've hidden. I know posting is a scary first step, but I am proud of you for taking that step! If you need anything at all, please reach out to me anytime - I'm here! Wishing you the best, Poppy

Welcome back! Glad you're here

@Figs - Anytime I'm glad you found it!

Hi, @Figs - Welcome to After Silence! I'm so glad you're here I have posted the DID support thread below so you can access it! No post requirements for that link. If you need anything else, feel free to message me anytime!

Hi, @Minty - Welcome to After Silence! I'm so sorry to hear about what you've gone through. While I can't relate as much as Cap, I can relate to the SA and I want you to know that I feel for you. I know that it doesn't matter how long it's been since it happened - trauma is still trauma. There's no timeline for healing. If you need anything, feel free to reach out to me any time! I'm here for you! Wishing you the best, Poppy

Hi, @Dee12 - Welcome to After Silence! I'm sorry to hear of the trauma you went through. And I know you feel that yours "wasn't as bad" as other people, but that doesn't matter. There's no scale to measure who has the worst trauma. What happened to you is just as important as what anyone else has gone through. Your feelings are valid and your story is important. I also saw that you mentioned wanting to share your story... I wanted to tell you that we do have a Share Your Story forum that will unlock for you once you reach 10 posts on your account. These can be posts you create or c

Hi, @write track - Welcome to After Silence! I'm glad you have joined this wonderful community I hope we are able to help you progress in your healing and feel less alone while doing it. If you need anything, feel free to reach out to me any time! Best, Poppy