Hello @ittookawhile I am glad you are here. It took me a very long time to find my truth. In fact, I am still retrieving memories. For me when I look at a memory sometimes decades old I still feel the feelings that I would have had it happened yesterday. Those feelings and emotions are just delayed. It now makes sense to me how normal that is. It is the abuse that was the abnormal behavior. We denied to survive. It is very brave of you to look at these experiences. I wish you the best in your healing. Please be loving and gentle with yourself. You deserve it.