snmls

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About snmls

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    Braver than she Believes
  • Birthday 12/31/1991

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    Philly
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    Yoga, running, writing, meditating, reading, learning, being nerdy

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  1. The "Me too" posts on Facebook got me feeling down.  It's reminding me how scared I still am to fully speak out.  I feel like I'm not helping.  :(

    1. fraidyfreida

      fraidyfreida

      You aren't alone.  I've been tempted to participate too, but I've been holding off. All my family is on fb, so I was thinking about sharing my story on twitter where I'm more anonymous, but the trolls are worse there...

      It feels like a good time because other people are sharing their stories, but I'm not quite ready myself. I've just been retweeting relevant stories and using the hashtag #metoo. Just be an ally to those who are brave enough, and trust that someday we will be strong enough to speak out too! 

    2. LuthienTinuviel

      LuthienTinuviel

      i agree... i kind of resent the whole thing....

      like now its ok to say it when it wasnt before ?

       

    3. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks @fraidyfreida.  I post a lot of things about sexual assault on my facebook and I attend events in the city, but I still can't come out to a group of people and say that I was sexually assaulted.  I still feel too much shame.  I'm sorry you feel this way too.  But I know you are right, that we just have to do what we can until we are ready.  

      I'm sorry you are feeling the same way too @LuthienTinuviel

       

  2. The world's got me feeling down :(

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if okay & sitting with you , sorry the worlds got you down.

    2. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks Free2Fly.  :hug:

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Your welcome :) 

  3. Volunteered at Philly's March to End Rape Culture yesterday.  It felt good to give back in that way.  

  4. Loving my new fidget cube! 

  5. Named how my parents have treated me as emotional abuse today in therapy.  :(

  6. Went to get a snack to eat and was triggered.  I was triggered by yogurt. Yogurt. :( 

    1. Juniperberry1900

      Juniperberry1900

      I think it's the consistency of it. It makes me gag sometimes.  I'm not sure why and think it's something weird about me, 

    2. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      I've gagged on it several times or I just wasn't able to swallow or I'd just get nauseas and shutter. 

    3. snmls

      snmls

      I can understand not liking the consistency. I don't think it's weird to feel that way.  I'm usually okay with yogurt, but before I ate it I remembered that the flavor was the same flavor that my rapist ate for breakfast the morning after.  

  7. I go back and forth between wanting to be in a relationship to wanting to be alone forever. 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Hey,

      your not alone.... my hope for love is gone completely although I have day were I want to be strong and find someone to make me happy it just seems impossible, I bearly socialise as it is .... sorry I am ranting... ignore me.

      :hug: if ok?

    2. snmls

      snmls

      It's okay Free2Fly, you are not ranting. You are expressing something that many of us feel.  I too have a lot of trouble socializing and making friends.  It makes it seem very unlikely that I'll ever be in a more intimate relationship someday.  

      Maybe someday we will get there.  We all deserve love in some shape or form.  

      :hug: 

  8. Taylor Swift won her court case!  

  9. 3rd anniversary today.

    "The arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends towards justice."

     

    1. Dahliaa

      Dahliaa

      A thousand safe :hug: Sitting with you today.

    2. snmls

      snmls

      Thank you @Dahliaa :hug:

  10. I think I did really bad on my exam today and now I'm really anxious.  I still have one more exam left on Friday I'm now I'm afraid I'll be too upset to do well on that one.  This is such a hard blow because I thought I did alright on the exam I had on Monday.  :( 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I'm sure you did better than you think. Try not to let it get to you, tho, without knowing for sure. Remind yourself that you tried your best and what is done, is done. Try your best to concentrate on the next one. You can do this! 

    2. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks for the pep talk Mary.  :hug:

  11. Exam start tomorrow!  Nervous. 

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    2. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks everyone!  Hoping if I can just remain calm and confident everything else will fall into place!  

    3. wolfennights

      wolfennights

      Good luck! I have a Calculus final this week also!

    4. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks!  Good luck on your Calculus final @wolfennights!

  12. Going to take zzzquil for the first time tonight. Hopefully, it will help me get a good night's sleep!

  13. When you're already upset and triggered and someone else comes along and pisses you off even more. 

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    2. Ian37

      Ian37

      It sucks when things snowball like that. I hope you start to feel a little better over the latter half of the long weekend.

      :luck:

    3. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks @MeBeMary and @Ian37.  Hope you both have a nice 4th of July. 

    4. Ian37

      Ian37

      Thanks! I'll enjoy it much more if it ever stops raining around these parts. Enjoy the holiday as well.

  14. I feel like an animal in a cage. 

  15. Cosby trial was a mistrial. Crying.  Devastated. Hopeless. 

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    2. oceonwaves

      oceonwaves

      some of them do get convicted. :dance:.  Medium told me last week that she sees him in handcuffs, detective has found other incriminating stuff on him. Patience is something I am having to try and develop more of.

      Cosby has been known about for more than 10 years, so 21 months  not bad I guess.

       

    3. snmls

      snmls

      Hopefully they are right! Sometimes having patience is all we can do. 

    4. oceonwaves

      oceonwaves

      @snmls thank you:)   I agree.  nearly 4 am here :zzz: must get some shut eye before time to rise and maybe shine.