snmls

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About snmls

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    Braver than she Believes
  • Birthday 12/31/1991

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    Philly
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    Yoga, running, writing, meditating, reading, learning, being nerdy

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  1. Taylor Swift won her court case!  

  2. 3rd anniversary today.

    "The arc of the moral universe is long, but it bends towards justice."

     

    1. Dahliaa

      Dahliaa

      A thousand safe :hug: Sitting with you today.

    2. snmls

      snmls

      Thank you @Dahliaa :hug:

  3. I think I did really bad on my exam today and now I'm really anxious.  I still have one more exam left on Friday I'm now I'm afraid I'll be too upset to do well on that one.  This is such a hard blow because I thought I did alright on the exam I had on Monday.  :( 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I'm sure you did better than you think. Try not to let it get to you, tho, without knowing for sure. Remind yourself that you tried your best and what is done, is done. Try your best to concentrate on the next one. You can do this! 

    2. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks for the pep talk Mary.  :hug:

  4. Exam start tomorrow!  Nervous. 

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    2. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks everyone!  Hoping if I can just remain calm and confident everything else will fall into place!  

    3. wolfennights

      wolfennights

      Good luck! I have a Calculus final this week also!

    4. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks!  Good luck on your Calculus final @wolfennights!

  5. Going to take zzzquil for the first time tonight. Hopefully, it will help me get a good night's sleep!

  6. When you're already upset and triggered and someone else comes along and pisses you off even more. 

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    2. Ian37

      Ian37

      It sucks when things snowball like that. I hope you start to feel a little better over the latter half of the long weekend.

      :luck:

    3. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks @MeBeMary and @Ian37.  Hope you both have a nice 4th of July. 

    4. Ian37

      Ian37

      Thanks! I'll enjoy it much more if it ever stops raining around these parts. Enjoy the holiday as well.

  7. I feel like an animal in a cage. 

  8. Cosby trial was a mistrial. Crying.  Devastated. Hopeless. 

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    2. oceonwaves

      oceonwaves

      some of them do get convicted. :dance:.  Medium told me last week that she sees him in handcuffs, detective has found other incriminating stuff on him. Patience is something I am having to try and develop more of.

      Cosby has been known about for more than 10 years, so 21 months  not bad I guess.

       

    3. snmls

      snmls

      Hopefully they are right! Sometimes having patience is all we can do. 

    4. oceonwaves

      oceonwaves

      @snmls thank you:)   I agree.  nearly 4 am here :zzz: must get some shut eye before time to rise and maybe shine.

  9. I think it would be neat if you could Skype you're younger self. Just a random thought.

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      The book Resurrection After Rape has an exercise in it where you write a letter to your younger self. The idea is to challenge some of the negative self-image beliefs that we have of ourselves resulting from our trauma.

      Sounds like you came up with a more techy, sci-fi type version of this. :)  I admit, it would be a more interesting to try with your version.

    2. fallenstar

      fallenstar

      I think it would be cool to do this. 

    3. snmls

      snmls

      @MeBeMary, I actually did that a few months ago.  It was extremely helpful for me. It helped to put things in perspective.  Showing me not only how far I have come, but also how I need to be kinder to myself.  

      I think it would be fun in a way.  Sometimes when I'm feeling down, I don't want to be around other people, but I still don't want to be lonely.  If I could Skype myself then I would have someone to talk to.  We would have similar interest and senses of humor, so we would keep each other entertained for sure. 

  10. Came across something today that said "'You're gonna be happy,' said life, 'but first I'll make you strong.'"  I want to believe that, but I don't know if I can right now. 

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    2. limbodante

      limbodante

      "The iron in the fire thinks itself needlessly burned, but the steel looks back and understands."

      When you're further along I think you'll look back and see your strength. It's ok to not believe it, but don't give up, the day is coming :)

    3. snmls

      snmls

      @Ian37 You are very wise.  Sometimes, I feel like the good moments aren't really worth it because it is always followed by a low point.   I know I have overcome a lot, but it feels to me like I'm doing more backtracking than going forward. But I do believe there is a potential in the way you think.  Maybe trying to frame things in a different way will help. 

      @limbodante that is a beautiful quote.  I hope that one day I do get to see the day when I can look back and truly see how strong I am. 

      Thank you both for your kind words. I needed them. 

    4. Ian37

      Ian37

      Not sure how wise but I very much appreciate the sentiment. Just sort of really experienced perhaps is all. I have overcome some things on this end but still have quite a way to go. It really can be quite the cycle of chaos. It's also easier to give others a pep talk at times than try following our own advice. Still, I am trying to believe that we attract different kinds of energy that then makes a difference in what is put forth. Sort of like this is based on how we look at things. Just maybe try being patient with yourself while realizing you're simply doing the best you can.

  11. Attended Philly's Take Back the Night tonight.  It was a great event but I'm worn out now.  I "felt" everyone's stories, it hurts.  

    1. limbodante

      limbodante

      Your empathy does your humanity credit, good on you for going, hope you recharge soon, it sounds intense.

    2. Coffee Alicorn

      Coffee Alicorn

      Aww I feel you man. I know that feel, empathy is a beautiful thing and rare these days. Those that feel it are amazing humans. I can imagine feeling the pain of people's stories of how they hurt, I've felt that too at one time. I offer safe hugs. :hug:

       

    3. snmls
  12. Thank you for your kind support. I appreciate your feedback on my post. It really means a lot, especially coming from fellow survivors. Hope you're well.

    ~°o.OⓉⓗⓐⓝⓚ ⓎⓞⓤO.o~

    1. snmls

      snmls

      Thank you and you're welcome.  I hope you're feeling a little better today. 

    2. Coffee Alicorn

      Coffee Alicorn

      Yes I am feeling a little better today. :) 

  13. When you share something with your T and they tear up a little because they are so proud of you. :throb:(and your proud of yourself too :))

    1. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      That's the best! So happy for you!

    2. StrugglingMama

      StrugglingMama

      Yes it is the best! Happened to me recently, too. Very happy for you.

       

    3. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks!  I'm so thankful I found my T.

  14. Just realized the breakdown I had Friday evening was unnecessary.  Thought I owed almost $700, but I actually have an almost $700 credit that I'll be refunded.  Now I just feel like an idiot.  Glad I worked up the courage to look at the bill again....  

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    2. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      lol I would be too!

      going back to school without a job would be nerve wracking. I totally understand. I always feel like I never have enough money or that some catastrophe will hit and then my money will be gone and blah blah blah. But I'm fine. I also don't exactly know your financial situation. Things have a strange way of working out. I still try to convince myself of that but it gives me hope that there's something I don't yet see or can't imagine. Like AS. I never thought I would have found a group as supportive as you all and I have learned so much just from this past week or so. I'm getting off topic, I wish you the best!

    3. snmls

      snmls

      Thanks @Bluesclues.  Wishing you all the best as well!:)

    4. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      Thank you!

  15. Anyone March for Science today?  A rainy and a little cold in Philly, but still had a great turnout. 

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    2. CurlyQueen

      CurlyQueen

      how was it? I wish I could have gone

    3. snmls

      snmls

      It was great.  I heard they had about 500 marches around the world.  Here in Philly they had a turnout around 25,000! Lots of creative signs. 

    4. Bluesclues

      Bluesclues

      Holy cow that's fantastic especially with the weather! Ahh! That's great!