waterlily13
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This is exactly where I'm at today, this made me cry, in a good way, when I read it. I felt like maybe others could relate to it to? Sending lots of love to everyone
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Thank you friend @MeBeMary
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Have T today and I'm anxious, could use sitters, need to talk about some hard things and last time I did I dissociated
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Thank you so much @Capulet@MeBeMary, I could feel you guys sitting with me and it helped!! It went really well, we worked on strategies to help me manage my anxiety and symptoms as we delve deeper into stuff. I will write more later, I need to talk and process but it just sends my anxiety up so high, I'm sitting with all the emotions, they're hard but it's a good thing, but it's all just so exhausting sometimes. I haven't really cried about my assault before, which sounds so ridiculous but I just can't seem to let myself feel enough to do it, it's just to much to feel, but I need to and I think I will get there if I keep working at this.
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So glad to hear it went well @waterlily13! Sending you my fave bubble dude.
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Thank you so much @AKB! I love him!! ❤️
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Feeling a lot of shame today
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I'm finally starting to be angry at *him*. I don't know what to do with these feelings, I feel wrong for having them but I've been angry at myself for so long and I don't want to carry it anymore. I have an injury that happened around the same time (in a car wreck not due to other trauma) that's finally healing and getting treatment, and I feel like I'm feeling and processing so much right now and it's somewhat overwhelming. Could use sitters and any kind words of advice
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Sitting with you. ❤️ Anger is a tough emotion to feel. I've resisted feeling it against my abuser(s) for a long time, but it's such a valid and reasonable feeling to have...after going through what you have, it makes sense to be angry. You're not wrong for being angry. It's good you're letting it out finally. *safe hugs if ok* Do you have a therapist you can talk to and work through these emotions with? I wish you all the best, also with your healing from your injury. Take care. ❤️
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Thanks so much @mini.finch❤️I do, she's really good and I really appreciate her, I'm meeting with her on Tuesday and I'm scared to talk about these things but I know I need too. Thank you for your kind words they mean a lot❤️
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Sitting with you friend, I am short on words but you amaze and inspire me and I'm so sorry for the pain you've had to endure. You are such an incredible person and you inspire me to keep putting one foot in front of the other. Hugs💙
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I'm struggling so much to focus tonight. I have so much anxiety it's making the writing I'm trying to do so hard
Send good thoughts please
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@Capulet thank you friend❤️
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I'm sitting with you friend, I hope you can find peace soon, here if you want to talk💙
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We are in the thick of traumaversary season. It feels so very lonely sometimes. I don't know how to explain it to people who've never been through, except to say I hope they never come to understand from experience the weight and pain this type of trauma is
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Just so tired tonight
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Thanks @MeBeMary, I'm doing a little better today, it's all just a lot sometimes
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trigger warning Crawling out from under the debris....
waterlily13 commented on Capulet's blog entry in A Grain of Salt & A Pound of Chocolate
Oh my goodness that's so much!! Sending so much love to you and J, what an absolute nightmare!! I'm so dang proud of you moving ahead with schooling and work, I hope you and J both can find some peace and reprieve! -
I relate so much to everything you wrote here, also I'm terrible at identifying my feelings too! My traumaversary is coming up soon, I'm sorry I'm late but I hope you are doing better, you are a beautiful person with so much worth who brings so much goodness to the world, thank you for sharing💜
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In the ER tonight with chest pains and shortness of breath, I'm nervous I don't know if it's an allergic reaction to an antibiotic I started on Sunday, or a panic attack, or something else but I feel awful and I'm scared
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I feel so angry at the world today. I'm hurting, I'm angry about what happened to me, and angry that I'll never have justice, he'll never have to be accountable. I'm just so angry
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I felt like that for a long time too. I always hated that person and how it made me feel, but at the same time I knew deep down that all that hate and anger wasn't who I was. It wasn't the person I was supposed to be. I didn't lash out at other but I did at myself. When I let those feelings and emotions get the better of me I felt like he was still winning, still controlling my life in some way. I didn't want to feel like they were a dark cloud following me my whole life. I'm not telling you what to feel, and I know those feelings you're having are justified but I will tell you that not letting those feelings get the better of you will help you heal and take control of your life again. Don't let him win.
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My nightmares are back
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Thank you so much @MeBeMary and @mini.finch, it means a lot💜
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I'm tired of feeling scared of everything all the time
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Sitting with you @waterlily13. I am so sorry you're feeling this way right now.
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Thank you @AKB so much ❤️
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