waterlily13
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Everything feels so heavy right now. I'm trying my best, but it's a heavy weight to bear
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Dreamed about *him* last night, I feel uneasy and yucky today. Kind of want to cry but the tears won't come
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In the brain's back pocket...
waterlily13 commented on Capulet's blog entry in A Grain of Salt & A Pound of Chocolate
Love and so many hugs to you friend, you inspire me by your strength and love and courage!!💜💜 -
Had kind of an emotional trigger this afternoon, I'm always a little fragile after EMDR, but tonight is getting rough. I wish I had someone to hold me and tell me it would be ok
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Having an ok day today for what feels like the first time in forever! I'm getting another tattoo on Tuesday and am excited about that
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Thanks everyone!! I'll send pics to anyone who wants to see, I'm really excited about it!. My other tattoo is a lotus flower because well... you know
I'm trying to change my relationship with my body and this felt like a step in the right direction
Thanks for all the love, hope you all are doing ok! ❤️
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It's an at least once daily thought, but sometimes I'm better at breaking the thought loop and leaving it at a single thought than others 😕
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trigger warning graduation congratulation
waterlily13 commented on samantha2009's blog entry in into the cave we wander
I'm so sorry my friend for what you went through, this is absolutely terrifying mine happened in a car too, you weren't stupid for following him there, and this was in NO WAY your fault. You didn't do ANYTHING wrong and he had NO right to do to you what he did. He sounds like a n absolute monster and I hope karma absolutely trashes him as soon as possible you are so very brave, I relate to a lot of what you wrote and just want you to know you aren't alone and you are very strong, and I'm here sitting with you if you want❤️ -
I feel ashamed and gross and dirty today...healing has so many ups and downs and this down is particularly rough ☹️
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I am having a horrible night of flashbacks and feeling trapped. I know what happened wasn't a big deal, and yet it feels like the focal point of my universe right now. I feel so utterly alone like no one could possibly understand, I just hurt, I'm so tired of hurting
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Panic attacks are back tonight... I'm trying so hard, this will end, right? There is a light at the end of this tunnel? I wish I was wrapped up somewhere with someone safe, I'm so tired of being scared
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Pounding headache tonight
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I feel hollow today. I wish I could explain to people what was taken from me, sometimes I don't feel like I understand it. My heart is hurting and I just feel empty
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I’m trying to ground, I don’t feel good and I can feel a panic attack coming on, I don’t want to have a panic attack, I’m scared
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Depression feels bad today. I’ve accepted what happened to me for what it was, I’ve always known it, but accepting that comes with so much fear and anxiety and self-loathing that I stopped fighting and let it happen
http://www.aftersilence.org/forum/index.php?/topic/135280-acceptance/
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Sending you as many hugs as you can stand, friend. You did a good thing by finding and recognizing your acceptance, and all that not-so-fun stuff is no surprise - but know that you did whatever you could possibly do to survive the moment. You are not to blame, luv, not one bit!!!
Way to go on finding your voice on this. I'm so proud of you! ❤️
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trigger warning Here it is - My Story
waterlily13 commented on Poppy_'s blog entry in Blah, Blah, Blog
Sending you so many hugs (if ok) @Poppy_, you are so strong and I’m so sorry you had to go through this awful experience when you talked about him not being interested in anything above the waist, like he just wanted someplace to stick *it*, I know that feeling, it was the same for me
if okay. Please remember healing is possible. Sending you strength.