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  2. waterlily13

    Panic attacks are back tonight... I'm trying so hard, this will end, right?  There is a light at the end of this tunnel?  I wish I was wrapped up somewhere with someone safe, I'm so tired of being scared:cry:

    1. 8888

      8888

      I'm sorry to hear you are struggling.  Sitting with you and :hug:if okay.  Please remember healing is possible.  Sending you strength.  

    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sitting with you, Waterlily. I know sometimes it feels like it will never get better, but keep holding on. You deserve much better and it will eventually come.

      Until then, safe, long-distance hugs for you, if ok. :hug: 

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you so much friends, it's been a rough couple of days but I'm doing better, I appreciate you all more than I can say, safe hugs back if that's ok:hug:

  3. waterlily13

    Pounding headache tonight :( 

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    2. 8888

      8888

      Sorry to hear that.  I hope you feel better soon.  :hug:

    3. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Hoping the headache has left you. :hug: 

    4. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you friends, so much ❤️ 

  4. waterlily13

    I feel hollow today.  I wish I could explain to people what was taken from me, sometimes I don't feel like I understand it.  My heart is hurting and I just feel empty :( 💔

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    2. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you so much friend, it helps a lot ❤️ 

    3. snmls

      snmls

      Sitting with you. 💜

    4. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you so much my friend, I’m starting to feel a little bit better💜

  5. waterlily13

    I’m trying to ground, I don’t feel good and I can feel a panic attack coming on, I don’t want to have a panic attack, I’m scared :( 

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    2. Capulet

      Capulet

      Deep breaths, friend!!!  Keep breathing.  This will pass.  Remember - you're safe!!! ❤️   

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you friends, it’s starting to pass, I’m going to try to rest but will check back in later, I think I just need sleep, ugh I hate this :( 

    4. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Glad it's passing. So undeserved. Get rest, friend. :hug: 

  6. waterlily13

    Depression feels bad today.  I’ve accepted what happened to me for what it was, I’ve always known it, but accepting that comes with so much fear and anxiety and self-loathing that I stopped fighting and let it happen :( 

    http://www.aftersilence.org/forum/index.php?/topic/135280-acceptance/

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    2. Capulet

      Capulet

      Sending you as many hugs as you can stand, friend.  You did a good thing by finding and recognizing your acceptance, and all that not-so-fun stuff is no surprise - but know that you did whatever you could possibly do to survive the moment.  You are not to blame, luv, not one bit!!!

      Way to go on finding your voice on this.  I'm so proud of you! ❤️ 

       

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank u so much @Capulet, you are so right, I just have to keep moving forward💜and thank you for always being there and so willing to listen💜💜 

      thank you @Free2Fly, hugs always appreciated💜

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Your welcome lily :) , some extra hugs to keep you going :hug:

  7. waterlily13
    Sending you so many hugs (if ok) @Poppy_, you are so strong and I’m so sorry you had to go through this awful experience when you talked about him not being interested in anything above the waist, like he just wanted someplace to stick *it*, I know that feeling, it was the same for me
  8. waterlily13

    Jittery as h*ll tonight.  I feel like I do when the anniversary comes up but it's nowhere close.  It feels like I'm waiting for the other shoe to drop, like something bad is just around the corner and if I don't run constantly it'll catch me.  Why do I feel like this, what's wrong with me?  Why did he pick me? :( 

    1. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: If ok? , I'm sorry your feeling like that, I'm having a bit of a rough night too, sitting with you and hope u feel better soon, maybe try some breathing exercises.

    2. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Hugs always ok:console: I'm sorry you are having a hard night too friend, I'm going to try grounding and see if that helps :( 

    3. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Thank u, I hope they work for you and your night gets better. :)

  9. waterlily13
    Sending you so many hugs my friend❤️❤️
  10. waterlily13

    To the person reading this, you are very strong and very loved and I hope you’re having a good day❤️

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    2. Field8

      Field8

      :throb:

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      :bighug: (If ok)

    4. Running

      Running

      💕

  11. waterlily13

    More pain tonight, why does everything hurt so much :( 

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I am sorry you are hurting. Sitting with you and supporting you. :hug: 

    2. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you so much friend ❤️ Today is a little better, so that is good :) 

    3. Field8

      Field8

      How are you feeling tonight?

  12. waterlily13

    I have lots of physical pain today.  It's so very cold where I am, and my joints all hurt.  My stomach hurts, my hips hurt.  But my mind is feeling more settled today, so that's good at least ❤️ Hoping everyone is doing ok ❤️ 

    1. Field8

      Field8

      :hug:

    2. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you friend :console::throb:

  13. waterlily13

    My heart feels hollow.  I'm always surprised at how deep the sadness can run.  It's like a vacuum that just sucks everything down, down, down.  I wish I knew the way up and out :( 

  14. waterlily13
    Welcome @mattzigzagu! I'm so sorry for what brings you here but I know you'll find lots of support and ears to listen and kind souls to hold space with you as you work on healing <3
  15. waterlily13
    Hi @Lauren23 I’m so sorry for what brought you here, you are welcome to message me anytime you want to talk best of luck, you are very strong for reaching out
  16. waterlily13
    why didn't you stop when I asked
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