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waterlily13

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    horses, writing, healing

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  1. I'm struggling so much to focus tonight.  I have so much anxiety it's making the writing I'm trying to do so hard :( Send good thoughts please

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    2. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thanks friends💙

    3. Capulet

      Capulet

      Always. ❤️ 

    4. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      @Capulet thank you friend❤️ 

  2. waterlily13

    No Title

    I'm sitting with you friend, I hope you can find peace soon, here if you want to talk💙
  3. We are in the thick of traumaversary season.  It feels so very lonely sometimes.  I don't know how to explain it to people who've never been through, except to say I hope they never come to understand from experience the weight and pain this type of trauma is :(

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    2. Field8

      Field8

      Sitting with you 

    3. Poppy_

      Poppy_

      You're not alone - I'm here for you. And you know everyone here understands so you don't have to explain anything here. You're loved. 

    4. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thanks @Field8@Poppy_ I needed to hear that, I'm feeling depressed and awful tonight😞

  4. Just so tired tonight :(

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sending hugs and support your way. Hoping sleep finds you in a restful, peaceful and rejuvenating way...and you will be ready to tackle the world tomorrow. :hug:   

    2. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thanks @MeBeMary, I'm doing a little better today, it's all just a lot sometimes

    3. AKB

      AKB

      Sitting with you and wishing you continued healing, friend. :throb:

  5. Oh my goodness that's so much!! Sending so much love to you and J, what an absolute nightmare!! I'm so dang proud of you moving ahead with schooling and work, I hope you and J both can find some peace and reprieve!
  6. I relate so much to everything you wrote here, also I'm terrible at identifying my feelings too! My traumaversary is coming up soon, I'm sorry I'm late but I hope you are doing better, you are a beautiful person with so much worth who brings so much goodness to the world, thank you for sharing💜
  7. In the ER tonight with chest pains and shortness of breath, I'm nervous I don't know if it's an allergic reaction to an antibiotic I started on Sunday, or a panic attack, or something else but I feel awful and I'm scared :(

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    2. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      Oh dear. I hope you'll be ok. The doctors will take good care of you. Sitting with you!!

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you all, I'm headed home, it looks like just a bad reaction to my antibiotic and I should be fine, I'm just exhausted and anxious😓

    4. 8888

      8888

      Oh no!  I hope you are feeling better now.  

  8. I feel so angry at the world today.  I'm hurting, I'm angry about what happened to me, and angry that I'll never have justice, he'll never have to be accountable.  I'm just so angry 

    1. Ceph

      Ceph

      I felt like that for a long time too. I always hated that person and how it made me feel, but at the same time I knew deep down that all that hate and anger wasn't who I was. It wasn't the person I was supposed to be. I didn't lash out at other but I did at myself. When I let those feelings and emotions get the better of me I felt like he was still winning, still controlling my life in some way. I didn't want to feel like they were a dark cloud following me my whole life. I'm not telling you what to feel, and I know those feelings you're having are justified but I will tell you that not letting those feelings get the better of you will help you heal and take control of your life again. Don't let him win.

    2. snmls

      snmls

      It's okay to be angry. You are allowed to feel angry about what happened to you and mad that he doesn't have to live with the consequences. Allow yourself to feel those emotions when you need to. 

  9. My nightmares are back :(

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    2. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      I'm sorry you're having bad nightmares lately. :( I hope that they leave you. We're here for you. Sitting with you and sending lots of comfort. :hug:

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you so much @MeBeMary and @mini.finch, it means a lot💜

    4. Ceph

      Ceph

      Nightmares are terrible, but what helped me when they woke me up was taking a look around me, seeing that I was safe, I was happy and I was next to my partner who loves me and will keep me safe. Let the nightmare pass and know its only that. 

  10. I'm tired of feeling scared of everything all the time :(

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    2. AKB

      AKB

      Sitting with you @waterlily13. I am so sorry you're feeling this way right now.

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you @AKB so much ❤️ 

    4. mini.finch

      mini.finch

      Sitting with you to keep all the mean, scary things away. :hug: Just know that you are very strong...the fact that you are seeking support, the fact that you opened up here proves you're strong. You don't deserve what happened to you. I'm so sorry for your pain. We're here for you. ❤️

  11. Headaches and cramping tonight...I hate fighting with my own body 😓 I'm so tired of being in pain 😓

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    2. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you so much friend ❤️ it's so appreciated ❤️ 

    3. BrightSide

      BrightSide

      Im sorry your struggling, would you like company? 🧡

    4. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      @BrightSide always!  Thank you friend💜

  12. Hi! I'm a bit short on words but wanted to say hello. I understand the need to connect to people with similar issues and just needing an outlet! Sending you support and hoping for more peaceful nights ❤️
  13. Flashbacks tonight, being a survivor is so lonely :(

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    2. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      It can be. I am so sorry. Thinking of you ❤️

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      @Field8 @Iheartcupcakes thank you friends💜I got wrapped up in the shame and blame cycle last night, and the flashbacks are so painful and isolating, and I don't do a good job asking for help when I'm like that :( everything is just a lot right now I suppose :(

    4. 8888

      8888

      I'm sorry to hear this.  I hope the flashbacks have subsided by now.

  14. Taking my puppy to the vet later today and I'm feeling very nervous, please send prayers and/or good healing vibes😥💜

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    2. AKB

      AKB

      I hope all goes well when your pupper has the procedure. Sending you lots of healing energy to get through this. I'm glad that you found out what is wrong and that the vet can fix it soon. 🐕 💙 🐇

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      Thank you so much @AKB!!  His procedure was a success, and he's doing much better💜

    4. AKB

      AKB

      Aww @waterlily13I'm so glad to hear it. It's so hard when our furbabies aren't feeling well. Hugs! :throb:

  15. Hard night, feeling heavy anxiety and grief, PTSD is the worst :(

    1. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sitting with you. :hug: 

    2. Enigma87

      Enigma87

      Oh friend, I’m sorry you aren’t feeling well tonight. :( Sitting with you too and sending hugs if okay? ❤️

    3. waterlily13

      waterlily13

      @MeBeMary thank you so much, I need it💜 @Enigma87 hugs always so appreciated, thank you!💜

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