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  1. Better night tonight🥰

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    2. Capulet


      ❤️ I'm so glad, friend!!!!

    3. snmls


      I'm glad you're feeling better. Hopefully the good feelings continue. 

    4. tuliptorn


      Late to this, but glad for you. :autumn:

  2. I am emotionally and physically exhausted today :(

    1. samantha2009


      I hope you are feeling better? Sitting with you if ok? :( 



    2. waterlily13


      I'm up and down today, I dunno, feeling frustrated about some things :( thanks friend❤️❤️

  3. Ouchy lower back & hips today...wish I could stay home in bed, but at least it's nice out

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    2. snmls


      Sorry you are in pain. Try to take it easy and enjoy the nice weather if you can. 

    3. waterlily13


      Thanks friends ❤️ 

    4. Free2Fly


      Your welcome hope your doing better now, if not then sitting with you and safe hugs :hug:If ok?

  4. Rough night. :(

    1. Free2Fly


      I'm sorry your having a rough night, sitting with if ok?

    2. Enigma87


      I’m sorry :( Sending safe hugs & sitting with you if ok ❤️

    3. BrightSide


      Im sorry, sending Safe and Positive vibes. B

  5. I wonder this sometimes. I feel like I've put a lot of work into healing but it still pops into my head almost every day. I guess now it's just a question of how strongly I react to the memories, how much it affects my every day life, is that silly?
  6. Everything feels so heavy right now.  I'm trying my best, but it's a heavy weight to bear :(

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    2. SurviveRecover


      You will make it through!

    3. tuliptorn


      Yes it is. But you can make it. Sitting with you🌷

    4. waterlily13


      Thank you so much friends, I'm so sorry I've been so slow to respond, I've just been taking the week minute by minute.  I'm tired a lot but things are starting to feel better in some ways :)

  7. Dreamed about *him* last night, I feel uneasy and yucky today.  Kind of want to cry but the tears won't come :(

    1. Poppy_


      Sitting with you, sweet friend :throb:

    2. waterlily13


      Thank you so much friend, I hope you are doing ok, grateful for you💜

  8. Love and so many hugs to you friend, you inspire me by your strength and love and courage!!💜💜
  9. Had kind of an emotional trigger this afternoon, I'm always a little fragile after EMDR, but tonight is getting rough.  I wish I had someone to hold me and tell me it would be ok :(

    1. samantha2009


      I’m sorry there is nobody to hold you and tell you it’s ok :( I will sit with you if ok?


    2. waterlily13


      Thank you friend ❤️ That does help ❤️ 

    3. samantha2009
  10. Having an ok day today for what feels like the first time in forever!  I'm getting another tattoo on Tuesday and am excited about that :)

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    2. Capulet


      Sounds awesome!!!  Hoping to see a photo if you'd like to share your tattoo!  I think I'm due another one soon! ❤️ Glad your days are improving, hun.

    3. waterlily13


      Thanks everyone!!  I'll send pics to anyone who wants to see, I'm really excited about it!.  My other tattoo is a lotus flower because well...  you know :) 

      I'm trying to change my relationship with my body and this felt like a step in the right direction :) Thanks for all the love, hope you all are doing ok! ❤️ 

    4. Free2Fly


      Your welcome 🙂,  tattoos aren't a bad thing they add colour, having a pretty rubbish time right now so yeah, anyway glad it's going good.

  11. It's an at least once daily thought, but sometimes I'm better at breaking the thought loop and leaving it at a single thought than others 😕
  12. I'm so sorry my friend for what you went through, this is absolutely terrifying mine happened in a car too, you weren't stupid for following him there, and this was in NO WAY your fault. You didn't do ANYTHING wrong and he had NO right to do to you what he did. He sounds like a n absolute monster and I hope karma absolutely trashes him as soon as possible you are so very brave, I relate to a lot of what you wrote and just want you to know you aren't alone and you are very strong, and I'm here sitting with you if you want❤️
  13. I feel ashamed and gross and dirty today...healing has so many ups and downs and this down is particularly rough ☹️

    1. nemesis


      Sitting with you if OK. ❤️

    2. snmls


      I think that is one of the things that is so hard about healing. That each day you wake up you can feel totally different from the day before. Makes healing exhausting. I'm sorry today is a bad day. Hope the rest of the week gets better. 

    3. MeBeMary
  14. I am having a horrible night of flashbacks and feeling trapped.  I know what happened wasn't a big deal, and yet it feels like the focal point of my universe right now.  I feel so utterly alone like no one could possibly understand, I just hurt, I'm so tired of hurting :( 

    1. AKB


      Sitting with you, if ok. I'm sorry you're having this happen. Sending you lots of ❤️ and 🐇!

    2. waterlily13


      Thank you so much friend, I'm really scared tonight, all of my emotions are high, it's the EMDR I think, bringing up everything I buried during and after my assault, I'm just scared :( the ❤️ and 🐰 are so appreciated, especially the 🐰!❤️

  15. Panic attacks are back tonight... I'm trying so hard, this will end, right?  There is a light at the end of this tunnel?  I wish I was wrapped up somewhere with someone safe, I'm so tired of being scared:cry:

    1. 8888


      I'm sorry to hear you are struggling.  Sitting with you and :hug:if okay.  Please remember healing is possible.  Sending you strength.  

    2. MeBeMary


      Sitting with you, Waterlily. I know sometimes it feels like it will never get better, but keep holding on. You deserve much better and it will eventually come.

      Until then, safe, long-distance hugs for you, if ok. :hug: 

    3. waterlily13


      Thank you so much friends, it's been a rough couple of days but I'm doing better, I appreciate you all more than I can say, safe hugs back if that's ok:hug:

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