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Celia

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About Celia

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    💙🌸 Be Yourself 🌸💙

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    Female
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  • Interests
    Listening to music and writing poems.

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  1. Oml, I am so sorry. It's so unfortunate how many people can relate. I send lots of comfort your way and hope you have better dreams. Thank you for commenting and taking the time to read my nightmare.
  2. What you talkin about Yea, you better shut your mouth I got dynamite, don't speak out Keep those damn words to yourself I'm not interested in your lies In your jacket or about your life In your words that you share so shy Fuck that, you're fucking sly Fucking backstabber, go cry I don't give a shit about your eye Trip down the stairs, two times Then to come to me and whine I'm no longer your petty "wife" I don't care if you fucking die Turned me into a damn slayer I hope you like my knife the killer
  3. Not gonna lie I'm stuck in a drought Stuck in the road Stuck in the clouds I don't wanna hide But that's how I pout Locked in my room Cry my eyes out Hide from the world That's how I'm down Don't tell me to stop That's how I drown Don't tell me to speak That's how I freak Caught in my thought Anxiety eating me Making me die You caught my lie But making me cry All day long 'n night Just like that day Yea, wasn't alright I remember clearly Yea, wasn't too
  4. Why is a raven like a writing desk?  Because they both symbolize void and death. 

  5. Thank you for the support and sitting with me
  6. I am so so sorry 🥺😓 I wanted to cry just reading that. I'm so sorry for what you've been through and are still going through. I'm sorry
  7. Hello. How are you? It's been a while, I know. In some ways, that's a good thing though, right? It means I haven't had any bad thoughts or sexual ones, to be specific. And by thoughts, I mean being triggered and depressed in my room. Although, I'm not home right now, I'm in WI. My home is in NC. Quite a bit away, but I'll be going home tomorrow. So, it's okay. I'm just chilling with family here in WI, nothing bad. Well, there has been some bad things. I keep having nightmares. Every day, but two. I've been here since July 20th. Only two days, did I have no nightm
  8. Well.  In three days (two days in two hours), I'll be gone with other family members for two weeks.  I hope I don't get triggered there.  My family there knows I've been abused.  What will they do?  This is the first time they're seeing me since they found out everything!  Not details, of course.  Will they ask me for details? 🥺🥺 I'm concerned and worried, but excited... but scared.  My anxiety hates this right now. 😣😣

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    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Your welcome, hope your doing okay tonight/day. :)

    3. Celia

      Celia

      Thank you, but unfortunately, I'm doing very badly.  Thank you for caring though.  I hope you're well.  

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      I'm sorry your doing badly, sitting with you hope stuff gets better.

      I'm okay I guess, thank you for asking.

  9. Celia

    God

    Same. I'm very sorry that you and many others can relate. It's heartbreaking.
  10. Celia

    God

    Thank you 🥺😔
  11. How am I supposed to be myself? When everyday I'm told to be like someone else. Always criticized and daily insulted Just for being who I am inside, that's it. I am my own enemy, Always listening to everyone and everything. Wanting to be perfect, Or at least accepted for myself. But I'm talked to like I should be someone else. Although, all the inspiring speeches told, They say you're perfect inside and out. They say to be yourself, it's okay to cry, But sometimes I feel like that's just a lie. If that were t
  12. He will never be forgiven nor loved by me ever again. 

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    2. Celia

      Celia

      @MeBeMary 🥺😔 It's not my painting, I just really like it.  That's true, I never realized it.  I hope I can.  I've been self-harming recently.  Nothing beautiful about that. 

      It's always okay, thank you.

    3. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      I'm so sorry you are struggling. It's so unfair. Butterflies are one of those symbols that I think are hopeful and inspiring, just like the lotus or a phoenix. 

      Keep fighting against those urges. I know it is not so easy, but keep reminding yourself to keep fighting. You deserve better and I want you to keep reminding yourself of that. 

      More hugs and wishing you the best to overcome these undeserved struggles. :hug:  

    4. Celia

      Celia

      @MeBeMary  Thank you very much.  I will try to remember that. 🌺🌺. Butterflies do seem very free.  I think I'd think that as the same equivalency as flying in a plane or being a pilot.  

  13. They say God is real They say he is alive But really floating above Saying everything is alright Saying that he has a plan For each and one of us Saying he is the protector And the father to all of us But let me ask a question Like… where has he been Wasn't here during past years Or even when I was a kid Left me alone Even though he knew He knew the truth of everything Yet gave no one a single clue If he was beside me During the entire time Why didn't he stop him Why di
  14. All this pain, Inside my head. I'm nearing an end, I might end up dead. I have an idea, That'll cost my life. But it's worth it for family, I must do the fight. The fucking bastard, Yea, the sexual abuser. I'm done with everything, No one doing nothing. I'm gonna fight, And by that, let's see. I know how to use a gun, I know where he sleeps. I'm gonna show up, Make sure he's awake. Look him in the eyes, Point the gun in his face. Say, "Goodbye, it's time t
  15. Of course, thank you 🙏🏻🌺
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