Iheartcupcakes

The necklace itself is nice. There is just something about the image of a chain around your hand and fingers in the context of SA that hits me wrong. Your nails say empowerment, but the chain makes me think of the opposite. No worries though because your nails are awesome and it's just a photo -- when you wear your necklace it is totally different. Also, it seems that nobody else is reacting to it as I did. Seems my brain often thinks the opposite of how everyone else's does.

I understand, @Whisper. I can see what you are saying. I am wearing it today so it looks better 

I'm sorry you are hurting, Amy. Sitting with you. 

Hugs  if ok we are all here for u always

Thank you both 

Glad you’re feeling better. (((Hugs)))

Thank you, @MzKeys75 

You have so much going on take care of yourself right now ❤️

Thinking of you tonight & hoping yesterday passed without anything being filed. 

Echoing @HiddenHeart.  I am thinking of you.

Still thinking of you through your anniversary days. Sending strength.

I'm sorry you are hurting so much, my friend. 

I am so sorry.  I will hold some of it with you.  I wish I could do more, but I am sending you love and peace, and feeling some of the sorrow with you.  There there, there there....

Thank you  I have a new foster dog and has added some love and sunshine. I am just exhausted. 

@Iheartcupcakes... I was on wellbutrin for about 2 weeks had a major issue in which I became super paranoid over everything... The dr took me off of it and told me never to try it again.

I don't have any experience with Pristiq, but I'm sitting with you. You've come a long way in the last 3 years and have so many great things ahead of you. 

Thank you all. I’m feeling better. 

@Whisper thank you so much. I needed to hear that. 

@Whisper thank you so much for those encouraging words. I really needed them. I know it hits home for you, too 

The part that I am having the most trouble with is all the girls at the schools where Ford lived who didn't talk to each other. Although I wondered whether my attacker went on to abuse others, I somehow never imagined that he abused other girls at my HS or that other girls had similar experiences there. Now I wonder how many girls I knew were also assaulted. With everything I know about SA, I still always imagine that it was only me.

Also, my attacker became a lawyer (not criminal law -- thank God he didn't become a criminal defense attorney) and had his own law firm. But his firm has disappeared and he didn't register and pay his registration fee to the state bar when it was last due. The address listed in his attorney registration record isn't where his firm was -- it's an apartment that used to be listed in his mother's name, but maybe a couple of years ago, I saw that the apartment was sold. He has stayed clear of social media and there is very little trace of him on the internet. So now I'm wondering whether he's in some kind of trouble. I am upset enough that he became a lawyer. I can't imagine how I would cope with him being a judge and, especially, a Supreme Court Justice. 

I don't know whether Kavanaugh is going to be confirmed -- I was pretty confident that he wouldn't be when I thought the FBI was doing a full investigation. Now that it appears the investigation was a sham, I'm not sure what is going to happen.  However, Sen Merkley filed a lawsuit to compel the WH to produce all of the docs they are hiding and made a motion for temporary restraining order to stop the vote while the case is pending. I think it is unlikely that he will win the case, but it's the same DC judge that had Manafort's case and I'm hoping she'll grant the TRO. Even delaying could help. Regardless, Kavanaugh is very dirty and I believe that, if he is confirmed, then after Mueller really acts and the truth about Trump et al comes out in full force, he will be impeached or he will resign (after being indicted).

I know this is hard -- it's like we're being punched in the face and spit on repeatedly every day --  but hang on because we're not at the end yet. I just hope, hope, hope that women are going to vote this time and get rid of a lot of Republicans. They aren't a political party anymore, they are a bunch of criminals (the people in office, not the people voting for them). The Dems need to be cleaned up too, but first we have to get the Reps out of power. 

When you have time, take a break from the depressing news and read these articles suggesting that women are going to vote and change things:  https://www.npr.org/2018/09/24/650447848/the-womens-wave-backlash-to-trump-persists-reshaping-politics-in-2018 and https://www.thecut.com/2018/09/rebecca-traister-good-and-mad-book-excerpt.html

Update: I'm reading that McConnell doesn't have the votes.   Ben Sasse gave a speech in which he said that he told Trump to pick a woman instead of Kavanaugh (a woman who wants to overturn R v W, but not a criminal who would protect him), partly because they were not equipped to deal with SA allegations that might surface. He has friends who were raped and understands the hell this causes. But OMG, is he admitting that they knew about Kav's past in advance? I know they did, but he's admitting it???? Anyway, he says things and then votes as he's supposed to, so I don't trust him to vote no. But maybe a group of Senators are going to tell McConnell that they will vote no, so he won't take a vote. https://www.omaha.com/news/politics/in-emotional-speech-ben-sasse-says-he-told-trump-to/article_537dc762-1cb2-5378-9cd5-b0507e0b1cf2.html

@Iheartcupcakes, Facebook literally causes nothing but trouble, was probably the worst thing to ever exist on the internet too.

safe hugs  if ok?

Thank you @Free2Fly

Yw safe hugs if ok?