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  1. Donnna

    When ?

    The more you speak out the more you claim The more he looses What you will gain. (I felt impressed upon to share.)
  2. I feel we are all survivors because we fight each moment to the next. Some days are a real fight to get through. But we do it.☺ thank you for sharing it's nice to know I'm not alone. I'm sorry for all you have endured. Sitting with you. I find using bath gloves help a little while bathing. Hope this is helpful.
  3. Donnna

    Im broken

    There is tons of people who care what happens to you. Keep reaching you will find lifelines. Keep fighting friend. There is a beautiful horison ahead. You are never alone. You have a place here. I have read Manny stories others have shared. There are deffinantly other's here that can relate to you. A moderator can help you post this in share your story. That's where you can find what you seek here.
  4. Sorrow but grace Paced but laced- with the pain of a dozen deaths , but no rest must face. The willows cover my discrase I chase. Secrets buried under the willows there are so Manny how can one loose there soul in a dozen selves. I shelved and hid placed right off the grid. I'm found but finding . losses its blinding the things said and did. No blame hate f@me tons of shame This no name hunkered in ambers .a wrapper sparks light the dark , Musty sent. Then I am sent replaced with a self that can disotiate/ replace flint avoiding contact, might ignight. That's co
  5. Donnna

    more alone than ever

    Thank you all for your kind words and positive encouragement. I am tons better. Sorry I did not reply sooner. I checked out for a while.
  6. I have been w@liking around numb and confused. When is things going to ease up.

    Then wolah. A switch has been flipped and I'm walking going through everyday things just like a puppet.

    I have a great husband. Great kids. A home food. I'm sorry I am trying I am here but in body. That seems to be enough for now. But my life is going bye. When will I feel again. When will I desire again.

    Dream.... Normal.  

    I gotta go I'm not ....

  7. Donnna

    more alone than ever

    thank you. I am 😊.
  8. Donnna

    more alone than ever

    sense I started blogging thats all I do. I someway can not seem to open up anymore. I'm afraid to talk on forums. Its lil I found a biding place and I'm stuck. I do not know who to talk to. I call a crisis line everyday. I shake and jump uncontrollably. I hate this feeling. I'm so afraid. Doe one somewhere will hurt me they will find me seek me out or just bam. I am a hermit at the moment but our van djed today so its on my feet out there now so come Monday I start walking. It will be ok. I will be strong. I know things will trigger up things smells sounds even temperatures. I am trying to not
  9. Donnna


    I have noticed a connection with my moods/parts of me. And blanking out /distracting myself. /moods taking over in that moment and I can not listen. I feel awkward like I'm suddenly on display the talking to me is way to much attention /possibly overload on info or emotions read elenor rest is vital and research in my self find supporters. For donna 🌹 Love yourself how you wanna be loved. Oh yea. Own it when its you. No hiding come on out. Responsible. School is coming up fast.
  10. I do not know how to speak about my personal self. Its actually easier to just let go and step back and let my feelings/emotions take over. I feel stupid. Out of place. Like i will never belong to a person or place I am a shell of this person people like and to a family who loves and needs me. I am disappointed to say I am selfish carless suicidal passionate for life to gel others. I am a list. I hate myself I can not stand being me sometimes. If I would step back and look at myself. I see a lost hurt soul. A selfish person who thi ks to often of herself. A person who does not see the tru
  11. Donnna


    I think somehow we have to give our inner child a talking to to let them know they are safe. And I do not see anything wrong with enjoying life. I build sand castles with my kids and sled and occasional smudgy ice cream smeary fights. I keep bubbles in the car ad blow them every chance I get stop lights tragic games. Its for e but others enjoy it to. Maybe you can do things you have not done or kinda relive holidays for you doing what you want its not easy but doable I lean on all of the people here when i need it and days come that I can not even type hi. Sorry I got to go hang in there sitti
  12. Donnna

    Are you there?

    welcome much
  13. Donnna

    possible did chatter

    well do not know what happened there but that was more than painful. So what's up guys. I do not feel ok my chest hurts and I'm jumping at everything in very snapy. Aww man I hate this feeling and tonight oh how i dread tonight . Grrrrr
  14. Donnna

    possible did chatter

    so I have another second. I am unsure what you guys can handle. I do not want to hurt anyone, triggers and such. Baby steps for all so where we start. Seriously! . GARAGE SILLY right, I go blank and, I hurt the pressur and fear in sorting. Do you know why? .......... .......... ..... Ok mabie thats not a far question. Where do we start. Maybie we can just get a bout three boxes lable donate keep and trash, yard sale? Do not know its a big deal to get rid off this stuff. Please help me I'm afraid that any clues to figuring some things out at going out the window, I have learn
  15. Donnna


    I felt like giving up I could not seem to fight and win I battled hard I hurt myself I beat me I punished me in more ways than I can say. I know its tough. Its more than that so much deeper and we can work together to pull through I got a addiction of my own. Its great it numbs me to my core. But its not ok I choose to fight you got to focus on you all of you. Figure out what you want to accomplish write it down. Post it copy it put it in your pocket. Put one in a book if you at reading one on commuter desk anywhere you go to more than twice a day above sink post its. Just write what your valu
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