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  1. Donnna

    When ?

    The more you speak out the more you claim The more he looses What you will gain. (I felt impressed upon to share.)
  2. I feel we are all survivors because we fight each moment to the next. Some days are a real fight to get through. But we do it.☺ thank you for sharing it's nice to know I'm not alone. I'm sorry for all you have endured. Sitting with you. I find using bath gloves help a little while bathing. Hope this is helpful.
  3. Donnna

    Im broken

    There is tons of people who care what happens to you. Keep reaching you will find lifelines. Keep fighting friend. There is a beautiful horison ahead. You are never alone. You have a place here. I have read Manny stories others have shared. There are deffinantly other's here that can relate to you. A moderator can help you post this in share your story. That's where you can find what you seek here.
  4. Sorrow but grace Paced but laced- with the pain of a dozen deaths , but no rest must face. The willows cover my discrase I chase. Secrets buried under the willows there are so Manny how can one loose there soul in a dozen selves. I shelved and hid placed right off the grid. I'm found but finding . losses its blinding the things said and did. No blame hate f@me tons of shame This no name hunkered in ambers .a wrapper sparks light the dark , Musty sent. Then I am sent replaced with a self that can disotiate/ replace flint avoiding contact, might ignight. That's co
  5. Donnna

    more alone than ever

    Thank you all for your kind words and positive encouragement. I am tons better. Sorry I did not reply sooner. I checked out for a while.
  6. I have been w@liking around numb and confused. When is things going to ease up.

    Then wolah. A switch has been flipped and I'm walking going through everyday things just like a puppet.

    I have a great husband. Great kids. A home food. I'm sorry I am trying I am here but in body. That seems to be enough for now. But my life is going bye. When will I feel again. When will I desire again.

    Dream.... Normal.  

    I gotta go I'm not ....

  7. Donnna

    more alone than ever

    thank you. I am 😊.
  8. Donnna

    more alone than ever

    sense I started blogging thats all I do. I someway can not seem to open up anymore. I'm afraid to talk on forums. Its lil I found a biding place and I'm stuck. I do not know who to talk to. I call a crisis line everyday. I shake and jump uncontrollably. I hate this feeling. I'm so afraid. Doe one somewhere will hurt me they will find me seek me out or just bam. I am a hermit at the moment but our van djed today so its on my feet out there now so come Monday I start walking. It will be ok. I will be strong. I know things will trigger up things smells sounds even temperatures. I am trying to not
  9. Donnna


    I have noticed a connection with my moods/parts of me. And blanking out /distracting myself. /moods taking over in that moment and I can not listen. I feel awkward like I'm suddenly on display the talking to me is way to much attention /possibly overload on info or emotions read elenor rest is vital and research in my self find supporters. For donna 🌹 Love yourself how you wanna be loved. Oh yea. Own it when its you. No hiding come on out. Responsible. School is coming up fast.
  10. I do not know how to speak about my personal self. Its actually easier to just let go and step back and let my feelings/emotions take over. I feel stupid. Out of place. Like i will never belong to a person or place I am a shell of this person people like and to a family who loves and needs me. I am disappointed to say I am selfish carless suicidal passionate for life to gel others. I am a list. I hate myself I can not stand being me sometimes. If I would step back and look at myself. I see a lost hurt soul. A selfish person who thi ks to often of herself. A person who does not see the tru
  11. Donnna


    I think somehow we have to give our inner child a talking to to let them know they are safe. And I do not see anything wrong with enjoying life. I build sand castles with my kids and sled and occasional smudgy ice cream smeary fights. I keep bubbles in the car ad blow them every chance I get stop lights tragic games. Its for e but others enjoy it to. Maybe you can do things you have not done or kinda relive holidays for you doing what you want its not easy but doable I lean on all of the people here when i need it and days come that I can not even type hi. Sorry I got to go hang in there sitti
  12. Donnna

    Are you there?

    welcome much
  13. Donnna

    possible did chatter

    well do not know what happened there but that was more than painful. So what's up guys. I do not feel ok my chest hurts and I'm jumping at everything in very snapy. Aww man I hate this feeling and tonight oh how i dread tonight . Grrrrr
  14. Donnna

    possible did chatter

    so I have another second. I am unsure what you guys can handle. I do not want to hurt anyone, triggers and such. Baby steps for all so where we start. Seriously! . GARAGE SILLY right, I go blank and, I hurt the pressur and fear in sorting. Do you know why? .......... .......... ..... Ok mabie thats not a far question. Where do we start. Maybie we can just get a bout three boxes lable donate keep and trash, yard sale? Do not know its a big deal to get rid off this stuff. Please help me I'm afraid that any clues to figuring some things out at going out the window, I have learn
  15. Donnna


    I felt like giving up I could not seem to fight and win I battled hard I hurt myself I beat me I punished me in more ways than I can say. I know its tough. Its more than that so much deeper and we can work together to pull through I got a addiction of my own. Its great it numbs me to my core. But its not ok I choose to fight you got to focus on you all of you. Figure out what you want to accomplish write it down. Post it copy it put it in your pocket. Put one in a book if you at reading one on commuter desk anywhere you go to more than twice a day above sink post its. Just write what your valu
  16. Donnna

    possible did chatter

    so do you guys wanna type longer post so i can get familiar with who is who? No it really does not matter(a person talking in-me lol) sorry I distract a lot, its ok no worries, yeah they are great, iperfere no names mentioned here for safety perposes for the girls yea or boys lol, you guys are arighit, sorry I change the spelling a lot, its ok I do get a lot of bs from my husband but your totaly worth it. No worries k you each are special to me. You are closer to life, reality, your my personal Heroes thanks for saving me.
  17. Donnna

    possible did chatter

    looks like do not know how to use this properly sorry guys at least blogging is a free spirit activity its ok to oopsie giggles from far away come closer you are a import an part of me . No matter how Mann times you ooopsie ilove you we are equal yea so come here join me we are who we are lets live a lot ok lifes to fricken short. So .. BRING IT ON! Hoots and hollars all around bliss! What more could a gall ask for. right🙌
  18. Donnna

    possible did chatter

    how ? Does not matter. Just do it please thanks guys I'm sorry I tune you out I have a lot I'm shuffling and my family and this what ever this is did or just a fluke thing or hey maybe I'm just cray cray. If this is something I am influencing then I would create someone to love me unconditionally and possible triggering warning ⚠ warning to caress me gently wipe away my tears.. Calmly with love and endurance for always I can trust In and truly speak without the knowledge that this would end and only leave me in yet one more peace of me to try to put back together.
  19. Donnna

    possible did chatter

    aww thanks, thanky yo, your sweet activistAlly
  20. my 9 year old is easier to talk to than my other two or my husband. But I am very careful what I say. She is very insightful. I am new to this kinda. Mean i have always noticed but never talked to them till three weeks ago or less. I do not even know some of there names there seems to be two I for sure notice over all but one that I am unaware of. I mean I will be blank trying to figure out what I just did. This is confusing.

    1. josiel


      I will send you a pm if that's ok. Josie :hug:

    2. josiel


      Oops...I tried sending you a pm but was unsuccessful...not working.  Will try again tomorrow.  Need to get some :sleepy:

    3. Donnna


      I found a care positions



  21. Donnna

    possible did chatter

    hits, hey, what's up whTs up 👆 any way how is everyone? I am feeling a bit shy is that hidden.? I just want to get to know y'all. we are a team see thats where it gets confusing . A team all aware of when most of identities shift. But sometimes there are holes. Aww this is scary stuff. Its new it will be ok. we have each other I wish hubby would join you but he is not a soul that gets this. Well what do you want to do tomorrow? I was thinking about the dressures and mirrors things need a nice shine and freshness yeah😝 lol you are to funny. So I wanna go for a walk. Oh the therap
  22. Donnna

    me myself and I

    llHshehhehheh ;)so lets see how this goes. :'(yeah out loud why not please talk out loud so its just the two of you right now. Wow this is interesting wanna talk to you guys more often now wounded people talk to them selves . ok sure they do not have people talking back. Technically your all me oh ok so I am talking to two others. So kinda like a three way conversation but the one not talking is me lol tricky shy:'( scared antisocial for a reason. SO DOES THIS MEAN I AM MENTAL? I need to find a peaceful honest soul that can help me I
  23. hi AnattaAnna hope you feel welcome here and are able to share your views, thoughts and opinions comfortably. I am interested in what you have to say. WELCOME
  24. Donnna

    just a note for myself.

    shouted that I'm so sick of you always saying I will not let people pay me back Lia has food in mouth and Li l willl get varied away and will bring food in here then added how I bloodied him up in past I 🌑 i feel the need to focus on why i can not remember certain conversations. 🌑 why does my handwriting change 🌑 what does being influenced have to do with it. Its lil the only time all the leases fit and if sober then i act the Sam as when i am aware of there presence but only i dissociate it seems and i change like watching diffrrnt videos 🌑 i am stuck and afraid at ho
  25. Donnna

    Are you there?

    the tears are in the back of my throat but not falling. But I deffinamtly feel blue. Numb. At the dame timeshy ashamed I feel like I'm going to snap I am afraid to get help Manny resins. I need a human to talk to or do I? A week ago I had them my moods lets call them. Remembering needed info to keep me on track. completely irrisponsable go with the wind no consaquinesea can touch me. then there's the eat till I am so gone:-o then the forgotten one who allows things to slip by without notice. ;] I literally an not remember anything;] I dream have goals wants I care.;O) s
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