Beamcam

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About Beamcam

  • Rank
    Survivor
  • Birthday 12/25/1982

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Pennsylvania
  • Interests
    fishing, cats ,dogs, cooking, music, hiking, outdoors, volunteering, and campfires/ bonfires

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    Survivor

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  1. I did it back to feeling really shitty again did it to myself with no ones help I can never do it right just a mess up and always will be 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you blues

    3. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      You are much more than any mistakes you might have made, none of us are perfect.  I see you as my friend and you always will be.

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you activist 

  2. So much going on Im shutting down need help but cant seem to ask anyone 

    1. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      I wish beyond wishes there was some help I could give but I can sit with you if okay and give safe hugs of support :(  you deserve kind support and help through this terrible time.

    2. EmergingLight

      EmergingLight

      (((((Beam))))) I hate that you are suffering so much at the moment

    3. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you both for your kind words

  3. why bother or care anymore so fed up 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thanks tuliptorn

    3. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      :up: 

      Be good to you. Sitting with you.

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      I dont know how too 

  4. so done with everything im giving up 

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    2. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      To some, maybe. I get that. It sucks.

      But it matters to you. And that's the person it matters to most. 

    3. snmls

      snmls

       Sitting with you Beamcam.  You are enough and you are so worth it.  :bighug:

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you

  5. just what I thought I dont matter 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thats just it your opinion not to anyone else 

    3. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      :(  sit if ok with you (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Thank you Activist

  6. Im so sick and tired of unreliable that say they are going to do something and then not follow through then wonder why I get so pissed off and just want to say the f*** with everything

  7. just done done done with everything

     

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Thanks PnB

    3. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      (((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Thank you 

  8. why bother when it falls on deaf ears 

    1. josiel
    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you 

    3. loveable

      loveable

      I understand this feeling quite well. Safe hugs

  9. Tired of it all not sleeping,  nonstop flashbacks. feeling of no self worth,  feeling like people say Im important but I am not, tired of light 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Thank you both Pnb and Hawkgirl

    3. Soon

      Soon

      Beam you are so important, you mean a lot to a lot of people on this site even if you dont know it, and im sure the same goes for you daily life. Sending many safe hugs your way :hug:

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Thank you Soon

  10. I totally give up Im not important why do I even bother anymore

    1. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      sitting with you in support if okay :(  you are important

    2. oceonwaves

      oceonwaves

      sorry you feel so bad, and thinking of giving up. you are a beautiful, compassionate, caring human being.

      and you love your animals, you are important even if you do not feel like that now.

       

    3. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you oceanwaves

       

  11. (((((((Beamcam))))))) not true, you are smart and funny, please try not to listen to the depression that is lying to you and telling you that, sending hugs, peace and calm, love teleah

    1. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you for the kind words teleah Im just not feeling any of it lately 

  12. Im useless and worthless 

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    2. Juniperberry1900
    3. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you for all the kind words oceanwaves 

       

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you for the hugs Juniper

  13. At a loss with everything right now 

  14. Im such a in sensitive person I should leave AS and never return 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you activistally it was my own self that did it Thanks for the hugs

    3. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Juniper thank you for your kind words but I truly dont see myself helping others 

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Soon thank you for all your kind words and stating that I matter on the site bc I truly feel like its the contrary 

  15. why do I even try anymore