Sometimes it's like I turn into my inner child. When I'm around my inner circle of family, my sister especially, I start acting younger. I have no idea why. It just feels nice to be like a kid again, to have someone taking care of me. To not have to worry about the big world.
Sometimes, she'll just come out, randomly, and I'll let her do what she wants.
There are some toys at therapy, and I started dipping my toes into playing with them. I was embarrassed to continue doing so, but I'm going to try to do more next time. My inner child needs to know that it's still okay, even though scary stuff is being talked about by me.
I also wrote her some letters, and it helped. As did imagining me hugging her (I started welling up, even)
I just want her to be okay. I wish this world was better than it is. She deserves a better world.
I love her so much.
All this is making me cry, and I don't even know why?
I think I'm going to read through the rest of this thread, bit by bit. Help connect with her even better.