Beamcam

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  1. will I ever be able to sleep again feeling so very exhausted and drained  

    1. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      I hope you will be able to sleep again (((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

       

    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Thank you

  2. I should just stick to the old ways and bottle everything 

  3. Im ready to give up 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you activist 

    3. teleah

      teleah

      Sitting with you (((((((Beamcam))))))) sending you thoughts of hope and healing, please take care of yourself, love teleah

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you 

  4. I am very tired very angry on the verge of becoming enraged and feel like alot of things are just so dang useless any more 

    1. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      Well, you certainly have a right to be frustrated if anyone does Beamy.  (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you Activist

  5. Im not worthy of anyones support 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thanks 

    3. robynpi

      robynpi

      I'm not the "hug" type, but I hope you're feeling a little better. 

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      not really but Ill manage thank you for asking 

  6. Im back again was gone a few days due to helping friends out but back now again and happy to be back home again 

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    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sometimes we forget the importance of being able to drive ourselves places when we need to. She is fortunate to have you step up to help. :up:

    3. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      You are incredible to help them!!!  Well done!!! :)

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you both very much

  7. I took a few days off from AS Im back again 

  8. Going to ER not good day

    1. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      if okay will ride with you my friend

    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you Im home now still no good news 

  9. I dont belong here there or any where 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      only part is that I cant believe it the times when I need the most support is always the times when I dont get it 

    3. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      I hope this will come to you at a time when it is needed but I support you if okay to say.  ((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you 

  10. Im done just plain done tired of always wasting my damn time I know my place and thats all that matters nothing but a piece of garbage 

    1. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      you are not garbage :(  never ((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))

  11. Im so sick of everything and everyone 

  12. Im on a 2 day streak of just hating people

  13. I did it back to feeling really shitty again did it to myself with no ones help I can never do it right just a mess up and always will be 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you blues

    3. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      You are much more than any mistakes you might have made, none of us are perfect.  I see you as my friend and you always will be.

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you activist 

  14. So much going on Im shutting down need help but cant seem to ask anyone 

    1. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      I wish beyond wishes there was some help I could give but I can sit with you if okay and give safe hugs of support :(  you deserve kind support and help through this terrible time.

    2. EmergingLight

      EmergingLight

      (((((Beam))))) I hate that you are suffering so much at the moment

    3. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you both for your kind words

  15. why bother or care anymore so fed up 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thanks tuliptorn

    3. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      :up: 

      Be good to you. Sitting with you.

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      I dont know how too 

  16. so done with everything im giving up 

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    2. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      To some, maybe. I get that. It sucks.

      But it matters to you. And that's the person it matters to most. 

    3. snmls

      snmls

       Sitting with you Beamcam.  You are enough and you are so worth it.  :bighug:

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you

  17. just what I thought I dont matter 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thats just it your opinion not to anyone else 

    3. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      :(  sit if ok with you (((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Thank you Activist

  18. Im so sick and tired of unreliable that say they are going to do something and then not follow through then wonder why I get so pissed off and just want to say the f*** with everything

  19. just done done done with everything

     

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Thanks PnB

    3. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      (((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Thank you 

  20. why bother when it falls on deaf ears 

    1. josiel
    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you 

    3. loveable

      loveable

      I understand this feeling quite well. Safe hugs

  21. Tired of it all not sleeping,  nonstop flashbacks. feeling of no self worth,  feeling like people say Im important but I am not, tired of light 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Thank you both Pnb and Hawkgirl

    3. Soon

      Soon

      Beam you are so important, you mean a lot to a lot of people on this site even if you dont know it, and im sure the same goes for you daily life. Sending many safe hugs your way :hug:

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Thank you Soon

  22. I totally give up Im not important why do I even bother anymore

    1. ActivistAlly

      ActivistAlly

      sitting with you in support if okay :(  you are important

    2. oceonwaves

      oceonwaves

      sorry you feel so bad, and thinking of giving up. you are a beautiful, compassionate, caring human being.

      and you love your animals, you are important even if you do not feel like that now.

       

    3. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you oceanwaves

       

  23. Im useless and worthless 

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    2. Juniperberry1900
    3. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you for all the kind words oceanwaves 

       

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you for the hugs Juniper

  24. At a loss with everything right now 

  25. Im such a in sensitive person I should leave AS and never return 

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    2. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      thank you activistally it was my own self that did it Thanks for the hugs

    3. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Juniper thank you for your kind words but I truly dont see myself helping others 

    4. Beamcam

      Beamcam

      Soon thank you for all your kind words and stating that I matter on the site bc I truly feel like its the contrary