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Rachal1

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  1. Thanks, hope you are well. I will send you a message soon when I have a little more confidence
  2. Thanks, Finchy. I will soon. Its taken a lot to come back, have been through a lot.
  3. Hi Everyone…So I am an old user of this site. I have been massively off the radar for a year now, in need of some support.
  4. Struggling. Just struggling. 😔

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    2. Finchy

      Finchy

      Sitting with you, Rachal. Sending you tons of support and comfort.

    3. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      Sorry it's so hard right now. Sending support and a hug, too...if ok. :hug: 

    4. Doll6

      Doll6

      Sitting with you 

  5. Have finally got the courage to come back here. As you all know, my case went to court and 5 men were convicted and sentenced. Following this, they managed to make contact with ‘associates’ of theirs and ordered them to come and find me…make me ‘pay’ for sending them to prison….

    I am broken 💔

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    2. Rachal1

      Rachal1

      @wannamove hopefully, at some point soon. Nobody is allowed at the minute, police protection. 

    3. Finchy

      Finchy

      I'm so sorry, Rachal. This sounds horrendous. I can't imagine what you're going through right now. It must be so scary... :( Poor thing. I'm glad that the police found you, and you are currently safe. You don't deserve any of what's happening to you. Gosh, I just can't believe this. I'm so sorry again. You have all of us here, caring about you, sending you strength. ❤️ Take gentle care.

    4. AKB

      AKB

      I'm so very sorry to hear this @Rachal1. Sending you an invisible security shield all around you to keep you as safe as possible.

  6. Really struggling. Something happened….💔 The police found me..luckily 

    1. Finchy

      Finchy

      Oh no. I hope that you're ok! I'm glad the police found you. Please take gentle care of yourself. We're here for you. Sending you lots of strength and support.

    2. Field8

      Field8

      Sending you hope

  7. Not been here for a while now…have been really struggling. Have no one to turn too as I have to look after mum and dad too. So much stress and just feel lost…like I am drowning and there is nobody to help..😔

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    2. AKB

      AKB

      @Rachal1sending you strength, support, unicorns, and rainbows. Hope that brings a slight smile to you, friend. I know you've had a difficult time of it. :bighug:

    3. Rachal1

      Rachal1

      Thank you everyone. I have not been reaching out or turning to anyone…seems easier to push people away..I don't have to try and explain how I feel that way. I know that is wrong. Had a run in with the police…things are still happening with 2 of my attackers…they don’t help, they just make me feel like I am part of their process and feelings don't even come into it. My counsellor wants to talk about feelings…apparently I have a barrier and struggle with my own feelings…she makes it sound so easy. It is just easier to push everyone away 😔

    4. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @Rachal1 You don't have to force yourself to any contacts, but try and reach out to your support system on the level you can handle. We are here, we care. Your counsellor seems to try and break through. You don't have to let them in at once, but try and tell them something every session, so you can get something off your chest. 

      I am so, so sorry. I had the police turn their backs on me too during my investigation, I can only imagine how you feel right now. 

      Sending my best. 

  8. Feeling so lost….this is truly awful.. 💔 How does this feeling ever get better…..

    1. AKB

      AKB

      Sitting with you @Rachal1 you've been through so much recently...healing after all of that can take time and may not be as linear as we hope. Know that we are here with you and will be for as long as you need us. Here's hoping you can find at least one sliver of joy this weekend, if possible. :bighug:

    2. MeBeMary

      MeBeMary

      It takes time. And patience.

      Not something we survivors like...or deserve.

      Just keep at it...keep fighting...and know you deserve the peace and happiness that will come...eventually.

      Sitting with you. :hug:  

    3. Mahadev

      Mahadev

      I wish I could say something to help, but I truly have no idea what you feel. I can't even imagine. All I know is, there are people here who have been through what you have been through. It doesn't make what happened to you better in any way, I'm just reminding you that you're not alone, and there are others who've been through this and come out the other side. All the best, really.
      Sitting with you, and I'm here to talk if you want to, or just listen, whatever :)

  9. So today, I went into my garage…I saw a hammer on the shelf. Huge trigger. I just froze and could not move, speak or breathe. I passed out. 💔😔

    1. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      I am so sorry Rachal. I hope you have someone to call, someone to come when these kind of things happen. I wish I could. However, sending you my best support. Please keep reaching out. 

      - W ☀️

    2. Rachal1

      Rachal1

      @WannaMoveOn Hi, I have two very close and good friends that are always there for me. I had a good rant after this happened, after I had calmed down. 

    3. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      @Rachal1 It is indeed good to know that there are at least two people for you to lean on, in case one would be unavailable. I also think it's very healthy that you put words on this. 

      Rooting for you!

      - W ☀️

  10. Sat in my car…can’t move. 💔😭

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    2. Rachal1

      Rachal1

      Thank you. I just froze. Don’t know what triggered me (I was followed in my car when I was attacked but this is not the first time that I have drove since) but I just stopped and could not move. I sat in my car for over two hours 💔

    3. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Oh Rachal. With being it the very first time after what happened, one can never know how our bodies will react. Sitting here if ok? 

       

    4. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      Some time is hits like that friend. Maybe your mind and body are really starting to process it. Weird how that happens. But you did good to stop the car and remain safe. Safe hugs.

  11. I give up. I can’t do this anymore. 

    1. Poppy_

      Poppy_

      I'm sorry you're feeling so low. I'm here if you need to talk :throb:

  12. Really in need of some words of support. I really thought that things would get easier after the trial, turns out I was so wrong. 
    Still so much to deal with and so much to process. 💔

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    2. snmls

      snmls

      Sending you support. You will get through this. We are all here for you. 

    3. Finchy

      Finchy

      Sending you lots of support and strength. Also, sitting with you, Rachal. I'm so sorry that you've had to go through all of this. You're doing so well, though. Please know you're not alone. Keep reaching out to us. ❤️ 

    4. Iheartcupcakes

      Iheartcupcakes

      Oh I know, friend. I am so sorry. I thought it would be better, too, but it instead just felt as if I had fallen off of a roller coaster. 

  13. Really rough day 😔

    1. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Hello Rachal! Sending you my sincere sympathies. Some days are just meant to be passed away under a blanked with a movie and something nice to drink, like your favorite soda. How does that sound? 

      - W ☀️

    2. Doll6

      Doll6

      Sorry to hear. Hang in there. We are here for you 

  14. Really struggling. Everything seems so surreal 💔😔

    1. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Hello Rachal. Sitting if ok? Everything you experience is completely normal, but I wished you wouldn't have to experience this.

      Please take good care of yourself. I hope you have something nice to look forward to this weekend. 

      - W ☀️

    2. AKB

      AKB

      After all that you've been through it's understandable that there would be a lot of complex feelings to process. You've been through so much. If you can give yourself some grace as you work through healing it can help. It's ok to not be ok! Sitting with you as you work through what's next.

    3. Mave

      Mave

      It’s okay to struggle while you’re trying to figure out your next step. You can do this. Sitting with you, if okay.

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