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Who's still up?
This girl.
No particular reason.
So....hi!
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My stress level is through the roof today. Feel like I’m going to explode into a million pieces.
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just what I thought I dont matter
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just what I thought I dont matter
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Dear Lord, I am tried today with no hope.
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Dear Lord, I am tried today with no hope.
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Dear Lord, I am tried today with no hope.
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Dear Patricia so sorry that you feel you have no hope, in this album singing about mothers blessing and also meaning asended masters and Mary mother of god.
. I love listening to her album that I have https://youtu.be/M-sHA6W10rg
some in English. I hope today is better for you.
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Just want to give up. So much going on in my personal life. Feel overloaded, not sure I can see a way out of my feeling. Some much sadness.
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@patriciag so sorry that there is so much sadness, thinking of you and praying for you,
you are so kind and considerate of others, and such a wonderful person.
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I totally give up Im not important why do I even bother anymore
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A reporter and the photagrapher who covered all of my cases and took pictures of the monster for the newspaper are at my office. They are interviewing our PR guy about our new construction. I am at the front desk giving the receptionist a break so I had to deal with them. I pretended not to know the photographer. I just treated him like I would anyone else. I am so triggered right now. I feel scared, nervous, shaky, and that pit in your stomach of dread....like something awful is going to happen. It still hurts so much....I can't believe how quickly you can regress.
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Im useless and worthless
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you feel that way now, but it is because of all the lies and deceipt betrayal and the trauma that SA has done to you and left you feeling worthless.
you are a beautiful person and I have seen you have a kind wonderful nature.
and you are deserving of unconditional love.
you are a wonderful human being and just struggling to get through the trauma and aftermath of SA.
the perpetrators are the ones that need to be on their knees praying like the Kesha song
sitting with you and sending
and lighting an eternal
to bring you out of the darkness so you can see how brave you have been and how worthy and useful you are .
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VASQUEZ HAYES is a monster. He's scum, and I hope prison for him is hell just like what he has put me through was and is. Sorry...I just had to let that out to people who will understand and not roll their eyes at me for saying it again and again...
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@Iheartcupcakes do they segregate them for thir safety there, lets hope the wardens forget to do this on regular basis. Amazing how their safety becomes an issue, what about your safety when he was roaming around freely with weapon.
well I bet he does not feel power and control now
Healing is so one step forward and 4 steps back . Play Lady Gaga's oscar performance to anyone that has stupid unhelpful comments which tends to be numerous people.
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Better this morning. Grateful.
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I was repeatedly sexually abused by a Tourette R*pist... now I'm ill
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got something out *breathes a sight of relief*
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Still waiting to run out of tears.
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Its 5 in morning here. I've been crying 3 hour straight. Everytime i cry like this everything just comes back all the hurt i've been through. I just can't seem to stop crying. I just want to heal from my past but days like these just set me back.
I've been lost lately I'm trying to get myself together but there's so much negativity surrounding me in this house. I just want it to end. It's hard to do this by yourself. I need help but can't get the help. I feel like a burden to everyone in my family. I wonder if anyone can see I'm drowning inside struggling to breathe. I just want to go back in time to before everything happened when i was happy and when i had my whole family around i miss everyone. Just be around everyone together again i would give anything to have those days back, to hug my uncle and my grandma one last time.
Even though i am down i still have my happy memories. The first time held my nephews and niece, the first they smiled, when me, brother and sister were young the crazy crap we would do, all the fun i had with my friends, when we bleached our hair the first time it looked horrible but me and my siblings still rocked it. The time me and my sister went to a concert together, when i smoked weed for the first time with both of them, and my first time i got drunk with sister. I'm still here fighting everyday to enjoy life.
I thank god i have somewhere to just say what's on my mind because its a big relief to be able to share.
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Its 5 in morning here. I've been crying 3 hour straight. Everytime i cry like this everything just comes back all the hurt i've been through. I just can't seem to stop crying. I just want to heal from my past but days like these just set me back.
I've been lost lately I'm trying to get myself together but there's so much negativity surrounding me in this house. I just want it to end. It's hard to do this by yourself. I need help but can't get the help. I feel like a burden to everyone in my family. I wonder if anyone can see I'm drowning inside struggling to breathe. I just want to go back in time to before everything happened when i was happy and when i had my whole family around i miss everyone. Just be around everyone together again i would give anything to have those days back, to hug my uncle and my grandma one last time.
Even though i am down i still have my happy memories. The first time held my nephews and niece, the first they smiled, when me, brother and sister were young the crazy crap we would do, all the fun i had with my friends, when we bleached our hair the first time it looked horrible but me and my siblings still rocked it. The time me and my sister went to a concert together, when i smoked weed for the first time with both of them, and my first time i got drunk with sister. I'm still here fighting everyday to enjoy life.
I thank god i have somewhere to just say what's on my mind because its a big relief to be able to share.
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You would think someone who studied paralegal would not be horribly gaslighty
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You would think someone who studied paralegal would not be horribly gaslighty
