missfrier

Feelibg really unsettled

Feelibg confused so many thoughts. Runnibg through my head. I thought I was moving. On had good few weeks. Feel like im going backwards agaiin I. Some one suggested I write letter to him telling him. My councilor sugeseted it to when. I was having the counciling.  I sont want keep havibg these feelings want them to stop now.   

i was innocent child he took my childhood away from me he hurt and now im trying to move on but it hard it not fair i never ad that childhood that most have i only can rember the bad things he did to me none of the good stuff
people  dont understand when i say  i dont rember my  childhood  i cant   tell them  what  he  did  so i dont  rember  
sorry

I been awake for a while.  Starting to feel l Iike im going backwards I am to scared to go downstairs. In case. There some one. Is down there I know there not. But I cant go down. I also keep looking at. Bedroom. Door in case he there.   Which I I know he not as he dont no whete I am. This is stupid I dont no.

May trigger. 

This time 3 years ago my littl baby nice was fighting. For her life it so unfair. 3 years ago friday at 745 pm she. Passed away I so dont want thia week to happeb. Like so unfair

I want to give up I cant do it 

im not  normal   i dont want

is feeling torn  i dont  know