Via. not even sure what normal is. But, I do know in general maybe what you mean. I have had to take a hard look lately at what has gotten my life to this point. And, I have no doubt my life could have had extraordinary in it. Even in the aftermath of debilitating pain. Personally, I just have never been in a place to accept anything within my mind other than negative. The doubt is never too far away. I just am trying to be a little better at controlling it. While not letting it control me. I do not mean to minimize any of this. But maybe someone out there still thinks we should have just a l