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marcyabadeer

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    Female
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    land of ooo
  • Interests
    singing, dancing, baking, gaming, reading

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  1. marcyabadeer

    it’s recently been the 12 year mark since I joined here and I’ve never felt so alone. this is not what it used to be… i used to feel like i belonged somewhere for once in my life . now i just feel like some kind of freak around here. maybe you have to be some sort of specific “survivor/ victim” person. i guess I’m not that. this will prob be deleted anyways so who cares 

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    2. Finchy

      Finchy

      Sitting with you, marcy.

    3. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      Thank you all for being kind 🌻🖤

    4. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Any time Marcy... I am happy you're still here. 

  2. marcyabadeer

    i give up 🤷🏻‍♀️ 

    1. Finchy

      Finchy

      :( *big safe hugs* Sitting with you, if you'd like? 

    2. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Hey, sitting if ok? 

  3. marcyabadeer
    Thank you 🌻
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  5. marcyabadeer

    ok then. idk why i even come here anymore 💔

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    2. Poppy_

      Poppy_

      I feel the exact same way. Feel free to shoot me a PM if you want to chat. I'll be sure to check back soon to see if you have messaged me. You're not alone. 

    3. Field8

      Field8

      I enjoy your company

    4. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      Thank you 😔

      :bighug:

  6. marcyabadeer

    i am burnt out on living life. people get annoyed with me when i am like this-makes me feel worse. then the intrusive thoughts and urges come back. i’d like to think things get better but idk. 

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    2. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      @Pea I am really sorry to hear that you are in pain. it’s such an isolating, excruciating place to feel stuck 💔 sending support to you- you are definitely not alone 

      🌻🖤

    3. Pea

      Pea

      i’ve just had a breakdown with my boyfriend telling him how tired i am and cried for an hour. it’s supposed to get better they say, i’m just waiting for that. i think we all are. sending you strength too

    4. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      @Pea thank you. I’m here for you if you need someone to talk to 🌻🖤

  7. marcyabadeer

    i wanna go to the moon 

     

  8. marcyabadeer

    trapped in this existence

     

    1. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Believe me I relate. You don't need to have it all together all the time. Be kind to yourself and keep reaching out. You are not alone 🌻 

    2. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      Thank you 🖤

  9. marcyabadeer

    maybe im just awful 

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    2. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      Thank you all for your positive encouragement. I appreciate the support 🖤

    3. WannaMoveOn

      WannaMoveOn

      Awful people usually think they are superior. You are not awful. Sitting if ok? 

    4. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      Thank you for sitting with me 🖤

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  11. marcyabadeer

    🖤🌻

     

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    🖤

     

  13. marcyabadeer

    should i bite my tongue until blood soaks my shirt? 

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    2. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Safe hugs :hug: if ok?

      I'm sorry your struggling, sitting with if ok?

    3. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      thank you all for the company- i really appreciate it. It’s been pretty lonely :( 

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      @marcyabadeer, anytime, I'm sorry it's been so lonely, been the same in my world to be honest although alot of things going out of control too.

      But yeah happy to listen if you need someone to talk to.

  14. marcyabadeer

    idk how to ask for help here. I feel like it’s arrogant of me to think anyone would even care 🤷🏻‍♀️ 😔 

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    2. Pink Sky

      Pink Sky

      Sending some extra care your way Marcy. I relate to how you feel, but whatever it is you're struggling with, big or small, you deserve support and will find it here if you reach out. Sending safe hugs if ok?

    3. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      Thank you for the support @Doll6& @Pink Sky. I really appreciate it.

      I feel less alone with all your responses 😢🌻🖤 I think I’ll try to make a post soon. I just get really scared of getting to that vulnerable space of opening up. I’ve regressed a lot with that 🤷🏻‍♀️ 

    4. Pink Sky

      Pink Sky

      That's ok, take your time! There's no pressure to share anything until you feel ready 

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  18. marcyabadeer

    you are a fraud 😢 taking others words and making them your own. how could you be so cold and awful? 
     

     

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    2. marcyabadeer

      marcyabadeer

      @Free2Flythank you. I’m feeling idk, grossed out by people and their intentions. 
       

      @tuliptornnope not talking about myself this time 😆 but thank you for your kindness my friend 

       

      :hug:

    3. tuliptorn

      tuliptorn

      😄🤣😂😆❤❤❤

    4. Free2Fly

      Free2Fly

      Your welcome, I'm sorry you're feeling like that, there's too much bad in the world.

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