Len523

I'm sorry the front office was rude, but curious as how it went? 

I hope that meeting the T was a much better experience. 

So far it has been very positive, so I think its just the front office that sucks. She's a lot more down-to-business than my previous therapist but she's really nice and seems almost excited to psychoanalyze me (which I find oddly flattering).

Happy to sit with you. 

Thank you

Gosh I am sorry. 

That's really nice!

That’s great To hear 

Congrats, have fun!

I'm sorry that you're struggling with a lot right now, Len...and how do you feel about ending sessions with your T? Will you be searching for another T? Or can you start back up with them if you need more sessions? I hope you're healing after having your cyst drained. Take it easy.  

I'm currently searching for another T because mine will be leaving and I'll be unable to continue with her. Its definitely been rough and I'm not entirely sure how I'll handle starting over since the past 2 years have been pretty bad and she's helped me through a lot of it. On the bright side my wrist is doing a bit better after I had the cyst drained, so hopefully it doesn't come back

Sitting with you and sending lots of care, comfort, and support, Len.  I hope you'll be able to celebrate your birthday a little bit. Best wishes.

Thank you I'm already emotionally exhausted the closer it gets to the day but my family is already helping prepare to celebrate so hopefully I can overcome the feeling

Sending positive vibes. It's never fair that we can identify what should be good and happy days with trauma or even grief of a loved one. Hoping you are able to focus on the good and I'm glad your family is helping. 

No truer words will I speak today...I hope you have a happy birthday, Len. I really do.   

That's great!! Congrats! I hope it goes well.  

I'm sorry about the awful nightmare.  I hope tonight will be better.

I hope so as well, I'm not sure what triggered it because I actually had a great day beforehand. I was finally out of a depressive pit and the dream threw me right back in

Cute!

Eeee I love it!! 

Ah nice one @Len523 Glad that talking things through helped and old friends are always a good distraction  

Thank you! Its harder since I'm back home alone now but I'm at least glad I could tell my T so we can start there next time 

I agree with Mary...you don't owe him anything, not even a reply. You know your answer, so it might be for the best to just delete the message and pretend it never happened. Block his number if needed, too. I'm glad you're going to talk to your T about him and what to do. Best wishes to you.  

Thank you both  

I've been sitting here for the past two-ish hours stressing out about it but I'm glad I haven't sent anything because I think not responding is in my best interest here. I feel a little less panicked than I was before thankfully so I'll delete it and try to ignore. I have him blocked everywhere except discord (because of a mutual friend group chat and a volunteer group chat) and apparently he tried messaging on those platforms before trying this one..

I'm glad you decided to delete it. This is your best interest and that should override everything else. Hopefully it helps you destress about it. Since you can't block him on discord, just ignore him as much as you can.  

I had a similar experience. Sometimes an hour In T can cover lots of topics, sometimes It can't. Interestingly enough, I feel like I do the most work outside of therapy and that's cool too. I also love that you thought of a blog because writing things down makes everything In your mind a little more "understandable"? If that makes sense...If you like, you can check out my blog for Ideas to get you started (only If you feel like It). Anyways, good luck!

Perhaps start by throwing some words on a WORD document or scribbling notes on a piece of paper. The good thing about wherever you do start...nobody here will judge. Most of us get it, too. I think we've all had too many emotions, not enough writing clarity. It can be a relief tho, just to get some of it out.

Wishing you luck with this.  

I'm glad you were able to get through your traumaversary.  That's a big accomplishment! I'm so sorry though about getting sick and not sleeping well. I hope you feel better.

Thank you so much! I'm hoping to get some sleep tonight since resting might help. I have my 2 year old niece to thank for the cold...

I listened to music and drew the whole time, and I'm so glad because the topic was on the exact thing my brain was already spiraling about the other day

It's nice she was upfront and gave you that option. Glad you recognized music and drawing was your way to self-care during the lecture. And gifts? Nice.