ImScared's Blog

It's okay to ramble, sometimes that's when the details come out that you need to release. With being a survivor of sexual abuse, there is a lot of cycling I've noticed personally, at least for me. Strange things will trigger a flashback, even when you are on top of the world at that exact memory.

My friend told me more about what happened. She says they have different mannerisms than me. Different hand movements and ways of talking, is this weird? She said I was reading a post and then I was gone and they were there......so weird for me to imagine. Luckily my family didn't walk in then because I don't know what would have happened....BTW-thank you for your response, I appreciate it. =)

Try not to be too hard on yourself. Do remember that these 'identities/others' are parts of you too, just not parts that you readily identify with. There may have been a good reason for that part of you to have come to the fore at that moment in time. It may have been to protect you, or perhaps it had something that it needed to be heard / let out. But this 'other' is still a part of you and has / does serve a purpose. I hope things settle again for you shortly. Take gentle care,

Forest x

Thank you for your response. They know that I don't like them to be out. I teach. Last year, sometimes the students would say I was bipolar....they didn't know what they were saying....they were 7th & 8th graders but it makes me wonder if they come out more than I know. That worries me. The post was nothing....well, it was something for that person but it meant nothing to me so why they came out doesn't make sense, they weren't protecting me. I think they were being naughty as usual. I guess what freaks me out the most is knowing that my friend saw the transformation. I don't like that at all. Have a safe day