New Girl

[jennyfields]

My it’s been a long time since I've been a newbie! I've posted and chatted at Pandora's Aquarium since I was fifteen and I just found this place. It looks similarly supportive and nice so I wanted to add this to my resources. First, my name, JennyFields, is the name of one of my favorite literary characters, she's from John Irving's The World According to Garp. She's a strong, independent woman who doesn't need anyone but herself to be fulfilled but still has meaningful and deep relationships with people in her life. Jenny is a rock.

My name is Sara. I'll be 20 in August. I grew up in Tennessee and am going to college here, living on my own. I'm an English major and want to be a college professor one day. I love college so much I never want to leave!

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Why I'm here. I was abused and raped by someone very close to me when I was 14/15. He was six years older than me and took advantage of it. I've been struggling a lot this summer because he's moved in down the street from where I live to attend graduate school for becoming a psychiatric nurse at the school I attend. He's also working at the mental hospital he, more than anything, drove me into when I was 14 AND he's working in the child and adolescent ward. Isn't that insane? This has been very upsetting and has helped me reach out for more resources, including more T visits and attending a women's group at the sexual assault crisis center. I'm really focused on "telling" right now, getting rid of a lot of secrets and learning how to not keep them and be true now and in the future.

I'm one month out of a two year sexually abusive relationship with a 33yo college math professor *cross my fingers* and that's really helped facilitate my healing. I've also had some number of other abusive or unwanted sexual situations in my life that I struggle with. Just this year I've started to come to terms with things that happen to me when I was a little child. Now that I've left home my mind has been letting me see under some rocks, so that's been a big deal. Besides just trying to work through what has come before, I'm working on being able to make friends and have healthy relationships, platonic and otherwise, with proper caution and *observed* boundaries.

I'm glad to be here and look forward to getting to know some people. I'll be rearing to get into chat because I'm really a chatrat more than anything! *Hugs to all*

- Sara

[Justice Fighter]

Welcome to AS huni!

Hope you find supportive and loving.

JT

[drowning000]

Welcome to AS

You sound amazing, good luck and hope to see you posting!

[Survivors sanctuary]

Welcome ..

[determined 1]

Welcome and you are needed here.

Blessings!

[Becky]

Welcome Sara

I am happy you found your way here and look forward to chatting with you.

[Lene]

Welcome to AS Sara

Look forward to getting to know you.

Lene

[firegirl]

Welcome to AS!!

[melissa]

Hello Sara

Welcome to AS!

There is much support, comfort, and frienship floating around here...

BTW I LOVE Jenny Fields! You sound strong and independent as well though. Thanks for reaching out, you're doing a wonderful job. Oh, and your avatar picture...I LOVE POOH! (but Eeyore's my favorite) That's so adorable.

See you around,

Melissa

[Capulet]

Welcome, Sara - nice to meet you. I hope you find the same amount of support here as I have.

[angelic]

Welcome Sara, hope you find what you're looking for here.

[sisterinsurvival]

Yahoo, !
We love you, and are glad you've found AfterSilence!

[gumby]

Howdy

[BlueWings]

I'm so happy you're here and willing to share and cope. That's such an important and big step. We're always here. This place has been the best for me ever since I've joined!

[teazle]

Hi and welcome to AS

I hope you find what you're looking for here

take care of yourself

teazle

[-Nicole-]

Welcome to After Silence

I hope that you enjoy this board and its resources.

Nicole

[havinameltdown]

Hi Sara, glad you are here with us!