Maley

Veterans day is so hard I was nineteen back then You forty and a sergeant you raped me you bastard no honor in your life you are a damn coward

Why did you rape me?

I want my tears back!! You stole all my tears! I fucking want them back! I want to feel again! Feel my pain not yours!

How could you hurt me?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Love and violence can't coexist!!! Your "love" hurt me badly!! You were such a coward!!! I am nothing like you!!! Dad, what the hell, really!!!

Hi Janepp, I do remember you!! Welcome back! I am so glad you are back here and hope you find all the support you need.........take gentle care! maley

Welcome Tyanne! You are in a safe and supportive community ready to help any time! Take gentle care!

Welcome to a great caring community and yes thank you for your kind words and you are so right about survivors understanding.....hope you find all the support you need take gentle care! Maley

I feel hurt and sad It has been 50 years I want my life back And I will get it I am still breathing deeply I am fighting to thrive

Feeling Ok, I wish you all the things you deserve in going home and nothing bad or stressful........and I love your tattoo...very moving and I was thinking of something similar.......happy for you! take gentle care! maley

First you mess me up?! Then you take your life?! What the fuck was that?! Fourty years ago...like today!! I will heal from this!!!!

Thank you so much Leah for the words you shared and the hug! Take gentle care maley

I thought you loved me?!

Great idea!

I was nineteen, you fourty! I was private, you sargent! I am a survivor now! You are probably dead, good!

I want mine back too :-( It touched me that you said this too.............Even though I don't know your story...........I am sorry anything happened to you that took your tears! I feel like i was hurt so much......I can actually remember when I was about 11 I made a decision to not let him make me cry again............I just wish I could now.......it's like he stole my tears! Take gentle care Leah! maley

It all really did happen!

Hi clergywoman, So sorry that you need to be here! Very glad you found this community as it is filled with caring, supportive survivors who are here to help each other on the healing journey. I think it is awesome you are pursuing your path as you described it............I wish for you all the support you deserve and need. I joined in Jan. after not dealing with CSA for many years and have found that therapy and this community are a real solid path toward healing. Welcome! maley

So glad you are back Andrew! I was new here in January and dealing w CSA also i hope hou co tinue to receive all you need here! take gentle care!

Hello Suziecide, I am so sorry that you need to be here. Yes there are a lot of us survivors here and ready to welcome and support you. I am so glad you found this community. I have found this to be a very caring and supportive community and I hope you find all you need here to help you on your healing journey. You are so right........it is time for you to allow yourself a happy life.......we are here to support and help you. Take gentle care! maley

I want my tears back!!!!

Sweet little boy.........I am starting to get little tiny glimpses of you and I'm so sorry I left you behind all these years in silence and alone.............I am now learning in a very deep way what it means to love you through my 3 year old grandson............I want to take your hand like I learned in taking his and help you know you are loved and I want to help you feel and live outloud like you deserve..........you have been silent so long........take my hand........

you could have stopped dad i am not your comfort you did not love me you were not my hero i am still afraid dad

Hello Amber, I am so very sorry for what you have been through. I am glad that you have a therapist and are begining to deal with what has happened to you. I wish to say thank you for your service if that is OK! I am glad that you are dealing with your assault and ptsd now rather than waiting a long time and going it alone. I was in the military when I was 19 raped while on my first overseas assignment. I waited many years to deal with. You are brave and courageous to reach out here and gain support for your healing journey. I wish you all the support you need and so deserve. Take gentl

Hello Cocoa, I am so sorry you need to be here however, I am glad you found this community and know that you will find accepting, caring and suppotive survivors here. Take gentle care! maley