Hello

[Pegpoo]

Hello everyone, 

I’m a 45+ years survivor. After all these years I feel like I’m starting back at square one. At almost 60 I’m finding my traumas are popping up again. Triggers are happening  everywhere and I’m barely coping. I came here to find the support and understanding that I’m not getting in my everyday life. I’m not comfortable talking about my shit with most people. The few times I’ve tried have not always gone well, leaving me feeling even worse than before. I did seek therapy 30+ years ago and eventually found an awesome psychiatrist who helped immensely. I’m not wanting to go back into therapy, it was a shit storm of a ride in the beginning going from doctor to doctor until I found the right fit. I think for now I just need a sounding board, someplace I can feel safe opening up about my traumas, depression and ptsd without judgement.  A place like this where people get it, they truly understand and just want to offer support. I am so glad I found this space and I’m sure it will help immensely over time. 
    Peace to all. 

[MeBeMary]

Hi Pegpoo and welcome. 

I am sorry for what you've been thru, no matter how long ago, it may have been. I too, still work on healing decades later. It's amazing how the healing path can be anything but straight, as there are many bumps and twists...a lot of times when you least expect it. 

It is truly understandable when you say that many people just don't get it...especially when time has passed. You say you are looking for people who understand and will support you? You found the right place. We all relate to a certain degree, if not by exact type trauma, then by the struggles we face. There is a thread that binds us all. 

Your current stance on therapy, I get. Do know that we may have a few members who advocate for therapy, and it is certainly ok to let them know that you are not in that place right now, if it is mentioned. That is your call and your judgement, and it will be respected. 

I am glad you found us and decided to reach out. You are not alone.

Wishing you the best as you continue to move forward on this path, we call healing.

Mary

 

 

[snmls]

Hi Pegpoo, 

Welcome to AS. I'm sorry for the trauma you've experienced, but I'm glad you found the site and decided to give it a try. This is a wonderful community filled with so many kind and caring individuals. We are all here to help each other heal. Sometimes taking with other survivors can help you feel less alone. You are welcome to come on the site and post any time you feel comfortable. Just reading posts is fine too. I hope that you end up finding this community as helpful as I do. Wishing you all the best. 

[awi]

Welcome friend to this safe place. Past therapy done isn't lost. Sometimes we just face some stuff where we need some support and that is ok. We are always moving up and forward even though it may seem as if it is two steps forward and one step back. I have gone back to work on healing several times to recharge my batteries, face new challenges, etc.  Age has little to do with it in my experience. Please be gentle to yourself.  Sitting with you. awi

[WannaMoveOn]

16 hours ago, Pegpoo said:

Hello everyone, 

I’m a 45+ years survivor. After all these years I feel like I’m starting back at square one. At almost 60 I’m finding my traumas are popping up again. Triggers are happening  everywhere and I’m barely coping. I came here to find the support and understanding that I’m not getting in my everyday life. I’m not comfortable talking about my shit with most people. The few times I’ve tried have not always gone well, leaving me feeling even worse than before. I did seek therapy 30+ years ago and eventually found an awesome psychiatrist who helped immensely. I’m not wanting to go back into therapy, it was a shit storm of a ride in the beginning going from doctor to doctor until I found the right fit. I think for now I just need a sounding board, someplace I can feel safe opening up about my traumas, depression and ptsd without judgement.  A place like this where people get it, they truly understand and just want to offer support. I am so glad I found this space and I’m sure it will help immensely over time. 
    Peace to all. 

Hello Pegboo! I am Wanna

It does sound like you could use a place like After Silence, this is a safe way to connect with fellow survivors on your own terms. You decide how much you'd like to share and when, and with our themed forums you can choose between different topics. We discuss coping strategies, therapy, diagnoses and other trauma related topics, but also just plain life. How we are feeling today, what made us happy or upset recently. Just take your time to explore how After Silence can be helpful for you

If you would need any assistance, you can always message me or any staff member of choice. We are here if you'd need some extra support, would have questions or like some company. 

All best, W ☀️

 

[missfrier]

Dear pegboo

 

Welcome to After Silence. I am sorry to hear of the trauma you have been through!

 

Being here has helped me so much. Everyone is so caring and supportive here. I am proud of you for reaching out. I know that is hard to do. I also know that you will find that needed compassion and support here within our community. Know we are here for you and we will listen whenever you would like to lean on us.    

 

Take care and please do not hesitate to ask for any help if you ever need it.