My Journey

Just from experience whether i want to remember good or bad memories during the time period that the  abuse had occurred, i have found that by going through old pictures or just by reminiscning, on old times brings me back to old memories. For example as i was moving out of my childhood home i stumbled among an old teddy bear( there was a reason this teddy bear was stashed away I'm guessing) i immediately got a sense of fear, sadness, hopelessness, nauseated feelings all at once. It brought back the memory of that day i got that bear, it was given to me by my offender( he had used it as bribe)  it brought back such awful feelings like i was there as a young scared girl all over again, after having this happen i opened up good and bad memories surrounding this time.I had a bonfire and burned all the belongings that i came upon that brought bad memories and kept the positives, just thought i would help you out  hang in there i no its frustrating not being about to remember, but also sometimes those bad memories are lost for a reason.