Sarahhk1

Do you think it's because they find it easier to think about in a minimised way. So they play down how bad it was. I genuinely think my mom looks at the rape of another person diff to mine. She cries at tv but cant for me

I'm not sure... I've thought in my mind the million and 1 things I could scream at them to force them to see reality but I dont think that would be helpful either. Its so frustrating when your mouth is bursting to talk about something and you can tell they have the "O god here she goes again" face on. They dont mean it but you just dont imagine your own family would act like that to something so horrendous. I did once hear "Maybe you need try harder. Your T said go for walks and you don't"... SERIOUSLY?!

Hi, hope you find what your looking for

Hi Ziarre, the experience you mention with you mum is very similar to mine. Beyond frustrating. I know the care but it's sad that they take the easier option of minimising

Hi Mark, thanks. The nature of my situation didn't afford me that choice unfortunately so I'm making the best of it. Delighted to see that all the things i've been going through in my brain are quite "normal" in our situations!

Hi Grey, I really understand what you say when you talk about solutions. I have never been so enraged than when a friend who had done s masters in psychology tried to give me tips on Cognitive behavioural therapy, I don't need that from a friend. I need someone who wants to take on my pain and feel for me. Not like you said, tell me I'm doing great, or i'm so brave. That's the easy way out: minimising and dismissing

Thank you Geeya, I am the same. I'm one of those types that forces themselves to function on the outside so nobody knows anythings wrong. I'm pretty tired from it all, and in one of those emotionless periods, which are so completely frustrating

Hi, I'm just hoping to talk to some people who understand what it's like to be one of "us". I'm not the person I was before, I'm floating invisibly in no man's land. X

I feel exactly the same. It's been 1 and a half years for me. I remember walking down the street with my sister a few months ago and she said "It's like you've died" Everything seems harder doesn't it? Whether it's functioning in a job or having to sit amongst people discussing this type of crime and have to act completely oblivious. I no longer fear what's already happened, I'm like you I fear those watching, although now I think I'm waiting for the worst. Do you think that we just have to acccept this life, we were the unlucky ones so now we must just live with it?

I go through those phases of dreams too... It's hard to find ways to stop them but they usually last a couple of days for me. At the moment I find I'm not able to shut off, it's like my body telling me it doesn't want the dreams again