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About this blog

I'm new to this kind of thing,but super excited to let some feelings out. I just started Counceling with a new therapist and for the first time ever im completely honest about my feelings about the relatives that molested me. it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be to express my love/attraction for them even though it's completely weird in our society I cant help how I feel. Yes they abused me as a child but I still love them. It's crazy. 

Anyways just wanted to write a little something something. Will blog later. I'm hoping to find support here and hopefully connect with people like me. 

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Inner child exercise

When you do these exercises do them some place you feel safe and will not be disturbed. Only share what you are comfortable with, and only with people you completely trust. If your not sure if you want to share or not, try asking your inner child. There is a difference between pretending to be a child and experiencing the child within. Experiencing the inner child is often a very physical thing, try to pay more attention to your body sensations in everyday life

michelleteama

michelleteama

 

Honesty

I truly believe that ever since I started blogging on here and reading everyone's story that I have been healing faster then ever. Thank YOU all for letting me share.

michelleteama

michelleteama

 

My personality type is INFP

Today I learned some more about my personality. It was quite interesting... I am definitely an introvert. But a unique type. According to Myers blah blah I am a  INFP;INTROVERT,NURTURING,INTUITIVE,FEELING,PERCEPTIVE. My meaning in life is to find out my purpose in life lol. Which is so true. I am constantly trying to figure out my purpose. Like I am constantly praying about this for years and it took 5 minutes on Pinterest to figure it out. My purpose is to heal the hurt. So I'm definitely

michelleteama

michelleteama

 

The first time

My cousin Chavo was 14 and I was 5.Him and I were left alone at home at night.I touched his genitals and made out. Almost got caught by his older brother Omar so he stuffed me under his covers I remember smelling his penis. Then hearing Omar step down the stairs. I don't remember anything after that...the next day he tickled me as usual but remember loving him so much. I would fantasize about him kissing my neck on top of my bed. I remember the Minnie mouse sheets and me wearing my favorite outf

michelleteama

michelleteama

 

Porn

I remember being fascinated by porn as a child...my grandmother walked in on me watching it once and she said to turn it off when mom and dad get home or I'll get in trouble. She was a really mean old lady and she made me sleep with her at night I hated it so much. I shared a bed with her and my cousin Frank. Same age but oddly enough I was never attracted to him and we never did anything that was sexual. He is the closest thing to a brother I had. We don't have that relationship anymore since o

michelleteama

michelleteama

 

Contacted my rapist

•Few days ago I contacted my Rapist from Alabama....i asked him if he could mail me my guitar. He said he'll try his best. Then he asked me if I'm coming to Birmingham anytime soon. I said maybe In December. For a whole day I tried my hardest to find his location and Facebook but no luck. Closest thing I have is home address and number. I feel empowered in a way knowing where he lives...hopefully I'll be strong enough one day to do something about that son of a bit*h.  

michelleteama

michelleteama

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