Ready4help21

That sure sounds good but right now they are just words on paper. No offense to you, I know you are just trying to help, just being honest about where I'm at.

I have a very very very difficult time believing that, even now I can easily give to others but for them to give to me seems wrong or unnecessary. I know that's a self worth issue but I just can't stop the mentality of thinking I should be the one always giving, never receiving.

Thank you for that, it doesn't seem very brave or strong to ask for help lol, more like the opposite. I never have felt like a sex object but I did use sex as a tool to get what I wanted from men or women, mostly just love and security. Now that I'm married I have no need to use sex as a tool because I can just ask for what I want or work hard to get it myself, so that leaves sex out of the picture for me now. I'd be just fine never having sex again the rest of my life but I know that is not realistic being married. I just want to be able to give myself and my husband what we both deserve. Wel

Thank you so much! I just want advice, tools I can use right away, someone to listen or care. Someone that can relate to what I'm going through or will go through. I just want to be cured from what has been more like a disease to me than anything else.

Hi, I am new here and was desperately searching online for help, a way to put an end to my suffering. I don't mean suicide, tried that too many times and failed (obviously), I mean the mental and emotional suffering I have endured it seems since this happened to me at 5 years old. I am one year away from 50 and I have been trying for the past 10 years of my marriage to ignore the issues, self medicate them, hide them, deny them and nothing works. So, here I am. I've hit rock bottom I guess, and so there is no way but up from here, anything anyone can suggest, recommend I'm open to, I've read b