Still crying.. can't get over it.... and i'm trying my best to forget it.. to move on.. 

Still think about suicide.. how to end it all...how to get rid of this feelings.. 

But somehow still manage to smile .. laugh... jokes with others.. 

While at 3 a.m .. 😭😭

I'm all alone.. 😢 and think.... i don't wanna live anymore.. this isn't fair.. why no one get it?? Why people put blame on me?? It's not like i wanna get that things happen to me! Why no one ever considered it.. never ask me how i feel..how i ever survive this depression anxiety all this things... 

I don't care how many years its gonna take.. but why.. no one believe me... it's not my fault.. i don't want all of this things to happen.. i don't want.. 

I wanna dissapear.. i want to forget all of this.. 😢

Sorry for my broken english.. 😭😭