[The light bulb DOES work!]

I think that's what I like so much about this site.  Anyone who has not experienced such a trauma would not understand.  

I feel lucky for having found this group.  I think it is helping already.  I hope you get some closure on this particular trigger.

I'm rooting for you,

- Healing4Life

[The light bulb DOES work!]

I often have extreme emotional responses to things that I don't understand and when I bring it up to my T, she makes the connection so easily and I just think, "DUH! How did I not see that?!" Though I am getting better at it after three years of counseling.  She also tells me all the time that these emotional responses WILL cease once I successfully process through my trauma.  So many seemingly off-the-wall triggers.  The other thing that strikes me about this post is how I can relate to keeping people at arm's length, then being surprised when they stay there even though I want them closer.  For instance, I recently lost my job (couldn't handle the PTSD symptoms at work) and the people I had worked with for nearly a decade don't speak to me anymore.  I didn't do anything wrong, I was just anxious.  Then it occurred to me that I made sure I didn't get too close to anyone.  They'll just hurt me.   Well, it worked.  They don't seem to care I'm gone.  

It sounds like M can help you make connections between emotional responses and the trauma.  Perhaps she can help you process through it some more as well.  Thanks for sharing.  I know it wasn't easy.

- Healing4Life