I gave in and texted my best friend.....too many told me to stop being a baby and talk to him. I will never understand how I became so fortunate as to have him as my best friend but I am grateful everyday! We talked....he told me that he's been struggling with his own issues. I feel horrible for being mean & not being there for him. He always excuses me. I hate that but I did apologise and promise to really try to talk to him. I'm working on it......when do I stop punishing him for things he never did? When do I stop thinking he will hurt me when he never does? Why don't I get it?? My mind makes stuff up about him all the time & I believe it. I'm convinced of it and refuse to hear him.....when do I stop thinking of me and worry about him? He can't possibly be ok with all this crap. He told me I was significant the other day....I felt like crying because I don't believe that I'm in his life but he says I am. Why is my self confidence so low when he is always building it up, does it ever get better?