So.... I thought maybe using this blog as a safe space to share our experiences might help us. This is our first psot, so it's just going to be an intro and maybe some rambling.

We're the Cosmos System, a mentally and physically disabled system who... well, we haven't figured out if we're DID or OSDD, but we're somewhere in there. There are over 80 of us, so it can be a bit chaotic, but I'm really glad we're all here and that I can be with everyone. Welve been on T for five years, but not all of us identify as trans or transmasc. If you want to know someone's pronouns, feel free to ask! Using they/them is generally okay otherwise.

I'm Allen, the host. I don't know that many of us will use our real names, just for safety and peace of mind, but I'm sure if anyone on here reads this, you'll understand. My pronouns are he/him and I am transmasc! I love dressing and being feminine, but I also love our beard! We're autistic and some of my/our special interests are:

👾 Elden Ring

🕷️ Tarantulas (fun fact! We've always been arachophobic and still struggle with it! I worked really, really hard on it for years to get to this point! I'm very proud of it!)

🐟 Coelacanths

On top of DID/OSDD and ASD, we also suffer from ADHD, PTSD, and Schizoaffective Bipolar Type for mental things.

On the physical end, we have Hypermobile Ehlers Danlos Syndrome, migraines, and some severe skin problems.

The reason we signed up for After Silence is because we are victims of CSA. Originally, I (and some others, I believe) had no idea we were survivors. I'll put how we came to the realization in another post, but it was a life changing discovery. I'm hoping that, by speaking out and becoming more open in talking about and through our trauma, we can find support and healing.

If you read this post, thank you so much. I hope to see you again soon.

-Allen