They call us survivors

They call us survivors but I don't feel like a survivor all I feel like is someone whose life has been ripped to pieces and left with nothing well he gets to walk around like it never even happened and is still treated like the golden boy well I'm blamed for tearing our family apart and I'm expected to "fix it" by acting like it never even happened. You will never know how hard it is to have to give up everything as a child so that your parents can have the life they want. There is so much I can't tell anyone it's just one of those things you don't talk about because I have to protect everyone else. I'm so sick of always having to protect everyone else when will someone finally step up and protect me and be there for me like I need. I just want someone who will always be there for me and on my side no matter what but that will never happen so it's me, myself and I and I need to figure out how to be alright with that just part of life I guess.