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Um, hi everyone. My name is Len and I’m nineteen years old. I got this account for the blog a couple months ago but only just got up the courage to start posting. I hope this will help me, though I’m not really sure of what exactly I am doing to be honest. It’s nice to meet you though

Hi, I'm RJ, new here. Where's the chat room?

Hello everyone. I’m new to this site and I’ve never really used anything similar before, so this will be a new experience for me. I was directed to this site the other day by a very kind person on a crisis text line. I’m ready to go through this journey of healing and sharing my experiences with people who understand.

Well, I'm here. How I got to this point is a long story, which I'm still writing down. But I am glad to have found this community to have support whenever I need it. So thank you and thank you in advance for the support.

Hello everyone, I'm new to the forum and just wanted to say hello. I don't know if I'm ready to share what happened to me (in correct area of course), but I hope this forum will help me to confront what happened. I also feel like this is a sort of support group, which is good for those of us who suffer from anxiety or similar, and have trouble talking about these things. Thanks for reading!

Hi I'm May I'm new to A.S. I have a lot of questions about what happened to me and I'm finding it harder and harder to ignore them if anyone could be of assistance I would be greatly obliged

Hello all, I am a survivor of DV and SAM as well as marital rape. My angel Raphael has protected me to get me this far in life that I might set things right in my home community and in my mind. Its good to know this site exists for us. Thank you

I signed up to this survivor site years ago when I was 20 years old. Back then I was just starting my recovery journey AND recovering abuse memories. It was all too much for me and I left the site. I have almost a decade of sporadic recovery behind me now and I'd like to give this site a try again. I'm here to share and listen. Trigger Warning My history of childhood abuse started when I was 3 years old, though probably earlier than that as I have perverbal memories. The abuse was physical, sexual, and emotional, committed by multiple family members. The physical and sexual abuse ended when I was 15 years old. The emotional, even financial, abuse ended last year when I went "no contact" with my parents. The last few months have been the most healing.

Hello all, I just wanted to make a first post to give a brief story about what's happened and what I'm currently going through. I am a now 23-year-Old woman who suffered abuse when I was a child into my early/mid teens. I never really got the support I needed from family or even friends, even when I did finally come forward and tell them what happened. I know now that many people just don't know how to react or handle learning something like that themselves but because of that, I've lived a life full of negative choices and regret. I can't blame my abuser any more for what has happened in my life because it was still me making the decision to do those things because I wasn't strong enough to really want better for myself. It's easier to give up than to give all of your energy and effort to something, but that is no excuse. I finally made the decision that I need to change. I'm currently married to an amazing man who always wants the best for everyone, even if he's a little off-putting sometimes, which I would tend to misconstrue as an attack and in turn would become aggressively defensive myself. I've taken him for granted and I've done many things, some very big things, to completely betray his trust and his feelings. We have a son together, he is 3 years old now and he is the light of my life, or at least, I love him as much as I could possibly love someone, but I'm not sure anymore that I truly know what it means to love someone because I've done so much wrong in my life. My son is too young to understand what's going on or what had happened, and for the most part he was never exposed to any of it or directly affected by my choices. I don't want to be this person anymore. I want to know what it's like to be a functioning and motivated human, instead of having no drive to even get out of bed half the time. I need to do this for me, and more importantly for my husband and son. They need me to be a supportive partner and mother. When I'm down I drag them down too. I want to be able to lift us all higher. I want all of us to be happy again.

Hello everyone, I am a new member and have to admit I'm not really sure what I should be doing and saying right now. I have never done anything like this before yet already I have read many comforting words.

Hello, everyone! I'm so glad I found this place - all the other survivor forums were very inactive... Um, I go by KJ on the internet. I'm 19, and a lover of all things psychology. I love writing, reading and painting. I used to love performing on a stage, singing and dancing but haven't been able to do that for a while. I'm diagnosed with depression, anxiety and PTSD. I've been in counseling for a couple of years. I thought it was time for me to find a safe place for deeper healing and discussion of the deeper issues. I'm excited to meet everyone and post things and read helpful things.

Hi everyone. Just joined this forum as an attempt to make honest connections and share my past. I am looking to give and receive support and hopefully to start healing. Happy to be here.

Hello All! My name is Dasi and I am here to interact with other survivors. I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse and want to actively help other survivors who have had similar experiences.

Hi all Just wanted to say it's really good to be here. I look forward to getting to know you all My name is LikeAcat because cats step lightly and can sometimes stay unseen and not get hurt. I always wanted to be a cat because if I could do that then I would not get hurt. So a big hello

New to the community,been having some recent flash backs of my abuse, due to being found by my abuser in Facebook. Needing someone to talk to!

Hello everyone! I'm excited I finally have gotten a chance to post on the message board! My real name is Essence and I just turned 19yrs old July 1st and am a survivor of sexual assault. I'm happy to join this community because I feel as though we can help one another here. I also hope that I can come into terms with the things that has happened to me.

Hello everyone! I am not exactly sure what to say, but I did want to take a moment to formally introduce myself. My name is Lucy and I'm a survivor of many different kinds of sexual trauma, spanning over two decades. I'm overall in a good place in my life, especially compared to my younger self, but I do think it would be nice to connect with people that are facing similar issues stemming from abuse/assault/etc. I so look forward to meeting new people and getting to know you better!

Hey All, I'm Nikki, I am new as of yesterday. I am 19 years old - I enjoy dancing, art, and fitness. I don't know what I am expecting out of this, but thought it was worth a shot. I feel a sense of comfort the more I surf around the site realizing that I really am not alone. The circumstances of meeting are unfortunate, but I look forward to the opportunity to be apart of this great community. Much love -Nikki

Straight off, let me say that I have never tried anything like this before. I considered it in the past, finding a support group, and talked myself out of it dozens of times. But I'm here now, although honestly I am not sure what to expect. The thought of committing to something like this scares me to death,truly, but I am willing to give it a shot now. I am a professional, a teacher of elementary children, and the reason I am attempting to connect with other survivors now is because I had a recent epiphany. It boils down to the bare bones of needing to come to some form of acceptance finally, in order to overcome issues rooted in the event from long ago. Hopefully connecting with other survivors will assist, and hopefully I can assist others. So, about me in a nutshell: I'm a teacher, as I said, with 15 years in education under my belt. I'm a creative, compassionate person, and the proud mother of two beautiful little girls. I am a musician, and play a number of instruments, as well as sing. I enjoy fiddling around with writing fiction...and I read all the time. My imagination is constantly in play. I am officially a bookworm, although sometimes the current technology admittedly makes me stray from my books. I love cats, but am fine with other animals, even to the point of owning a snake for a handful of years. I dabble with gaming and jewelry making. I am one of those people who doesn't make friends easily (chalk that up to trust issues), but I am always friendly and courteous when in a social venue, as best as I can be; people have never questioned my professionalism and I'm pretty maternal when it comes to my students. In general, I take care of people to the best of my ability, sometimes to a fault. Depending on my mood, I can hover in a solitary corner at a social event, or strike up dozens of conversations with strangers. I fluctuate, I suppose. I try to be self-aware, and my motivations usually include what is best for the loved ones in my life. I've had tragedies, some very recent, but also plentiful successes over the years. I am strong in many ways, and insecure in others, which I believe is perfectly normal, survivor or not. I am a great listener, and empathetic. All in all, I hope I can contribute successfully here. So... greetings and salutations. I'll keep my fingers crossed.

Hi there, My name is Nicole and I'm a new member to After Silence as a victim of abuse. I am 19 years old and I just want to get better... I feel like no one wants to hear what I have to say or understands that I'm actually going through stuff here... Thanks for reading. I look forward to utilizing this resource now that I know it's available