I have no memory of being raped, but I had a possible symptom. I went to a councilor. I read the book, "Victims No Longer." I go to support groups, but don't know how to bring it up without being judged. My cousin, who was my best friend, committed suicide about the same time in my life.
Hello. I must explain my username. I wrote a song many years ago with the lyric "the road looks more like a ladder to me." The road of survival is an uphill climb while victimization is possibly a fall. I respect your privacy as I hope you do mine.
I stay busy with school as I want to be a teacher. I spend my leisure time painting pictures, playing music, and gardening (also tv). I have chores at home. But with all this comes stress and sadness, but I am afraid that if I break down crying anywhere that others will know and think I'm weak or disturbed. Men are supposed to be strong. Why do tears take courage? I think that because I was molested simple things like that are complicated. Or it is hard to cry because my family lives very far away.