It has been almost 30 years since I was sexually molested for over 2 years by my neighbor (who I thought was a friend) and his father. I've never so much as uttered a single word to ANYONE about it EVER until now! I am 36 years old, married with 2 children of my own now. I've made it through, but feel as though it forever changed who I am. I currently take medication for anxiety & depression. My wife always questions me, wondering what I could possibly be depressed about...everything in our life is picture perfect! I wish I could come clean about it but I swore this was something I would take to the grave without ever telling anyone.
I was so young, so innocent, and these two monsters opened a door of disgust so early in my life! Why? Why me? I just wish I could've had a normal childhood - playing baseball, riding bikes with friends and eventually grow into adolescence and learn about the birds & The bees the proper way. Like every other normal boy I knew. But NO - I was thrown in head first without even time to blink an eye!
Ever since those early years I've often found it hard to make friends. I trusted no one. The friends I did make, I would eventually cut off for no reason whatsoever! I Don't really know what else to say right now except for hello everyone - I'm glad I found this place. And finally was able to let some of my demons out!
Side Note: The father has since passed away (no tears there). And the younger neighbor is also married with children as well and actually lives in the same town I do! (GO FIGURE)