Hey @Poppy_ Lots of safe hugs coming your way, if wanted. Thank you for your courage in sharing your story. I'm so sorry you had to experience this. I wish you didn't feel like you need to forgive yourself for something that was 100% not your fault. The blame is all on him. You said that you absolutely didn't want to have sex that night, and especially not with him. You knew what you did and did not want. He didn't care, he took advantage of you when you were unable to consent (either drunk or drugged or both, still is his fault). I really appreciate you sharing your story. It must have been difficult to write, to bring up all those memories in such detail. Know that I am sitting with you as you continue to process and grow and heal. -Veronica
Hi guys, I'm so glad to find this site. I've been struggling for eleven years with shame and self-loathing, following an incident which I blamed myself for. This time last year, during a time of self-reflection, I realized that what had happened was non-consensual. I didn't know who to talk to about these thoughts, because the person this happened with is my husband of ten years. I will share more on another post, but I'm just really glad to find a safe space with people who understand.