SacredVoice

Idont know if I am replying correctly or not... bare w/ me Well, Miss Wise and Miss I feel so FREE is feeling the pain, again. More like confusion. I feel like a fish on a hook…. went for the bait again. The guilt bait! God, I feel like a slave to something I have forgiven, given back, and thrown out! I wrote that letter to my father ( as mentioned in my first post ), and finally he writes back. It was cruel, distant, and selfish. Why, would I expect differently? Its SOOOOO confusing when its your father. A man that actually really loved you, that you called daddy, that you found comf

Tonight is a big night for me... ITs my fathers birthday, the man that molested me, and for the first time I do not feel guilty for not calling him? And out of the blue, I get an e-mail from this group? A group I really havnt been apart of for a long time. Its like some kind of sign. I've come a very long way, and really do see "now" that its okay to leave him... w/ his pain. I have spent 36 years carrying this darkness. Its taken so much energy from my life, to where I have not even become a mother, yet. Key word ... yet! I'm tired of it, finally tired of it, and I refuse to feel guilt

Thank You everyone..... for such a warm welcome ... You all are soo kind

What a beautiful site ~ I am so glad to have found you all ~ I am fairly new to posting, and being open about what I am so good at hiding. I guess I can post my story another time.... I just wanted to say Thank You to all of you for being so brave, and sharing whats in your hearts. Your courage helps me find mine....