My name is Alex and i was a victim of child abuse as a child. After the abuse it seemed as if I was able to block that traumatic memory in the back of my mind for about 18 to 20 years until I started to fall into depression i started to become more and more isolated and just being with my own thoughts those horrible memories came back. The thing that I believed made it worse is that sex is a taboo topic to bring up in my family and after it happened it was never talked about and I was never able to recover from this traumatic event as a child. I carried this with me until this year that i decided to seek help from a psychologist due to depression, and social anxiety. I guess another reason for all those years keeping it a secret was that i am a male victim. All i wish is to make those horrible memories go away and be able to feel normal being out around people without feeling that people know or sense what happened to me. I read some of the stuff on this site and decided to share what happened to me. I've never really shared this with anyone and just wanted to see if maybe this and working with my psychologist can help me overcome this event at this point of my life.