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Hello, I don't know what to write but it said we should write something so I'm doing it. I'm a survivor and I am 22 years old, that's a good way to start and I want to be honest and say that I'm not sure why I signed up for this page since i don't like to be reminded or think of any of it ever. Most of the time it works for me at least that what I would like to believe but then things just get into my head and ones it's there it's impossible to get rid of and makes me feel weak. Yeah but maybe I joined this page to get tips from others on how to get a hold of myself. I feel like my brain has a lot of weird issues, mental issues? ( sorry if my wording is weird this is not my native language) it's hard to describe and sometimes I wish I could talk to my boyfriend about things and he kinda knows but I don't tell him what's going on in my head because he is always in need of my support and help and I like to help him. He's not good in handling issues other people have because he carries it to deeply in his heart. By the way he is my first boyfriend
we have been together over 3 years and I love him so so so very much. So, hello everyone! Hi Baijingal,
Welcome to AS (after silence). I hope that this site can provide you with some kind support. I'm part of the new member support team so again, welcome and i hope you feel at home here.
Activist Ally
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I can't stop deleting my posts. But really trying to work through things and reading AS has helped. Thank you guys for sharing... I wish I was as good at it. Ugh. You've really helped me so I don't know why I can't leave the words on the page.
Hi 3lit3,
Ah, please don't feel bad that you have deleted some posts. It's really common and understandable to feel nervous about posting. You're just fine at it I am sure! Please go at your own pace and do what feels comfortable to you.
On behalf of the newbie support team, welcome to AS!
ACtivist Ally
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Thank you all. I'm looking forward to finally dealing with this properly. I've noticed it's been a little easier just knowing I have this site. this might sound terrible and I wouldn't wish it upon anyone but I'm glad to know I'm not alone
It isn't terrible, it's completely understandable and you aren't alone!
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Hello everyone - I just wanted to introduce myself. I've been battling with some stuff and thought maybe a place to talk to others would help. So - hi!
HI Cinderellawts!
Glad to see you and welcome to After Silence (AS)!!!!
Sounds like you've been struggling with some heavy things and I hope this will be a good place for you to unburden yourself by talking with others who understand. I hope you'll find the members of AS will support you every step of the way!
With support,
Activist Ally
Hi Activist Ally - thank you for the welcome. I've been browsing the forum, but I'm a little unsure where to begin - other than the obvious post here. Can you point me in the right direction? I'd like some help focusing on how to get past triggers.
Yes, as I am a member of the Newbie Support Team I'd be glad to do that but I'll send you a message with some tips on that okay?
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Hello everyone - I just wanted to introduce myself. I've been battling with some stuff and thought maybe a place to talk to others would help. So - hi!
HI Cinderellawts!
Glad to see you and welcome to After Silence (AS)!!!!
Sounds like you've been struggling with some heavy things and I hope this will be a good place for you to unburden yourself by talking with others who understand. I hope you'll find the members of AS will support you every step of the way!
With support,
Activist Ally
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Hello, everyone. I just recently found this forum, but have been struggling for quite awhile. I am glad that this community has been created, because often I feel so alone that I don't know where to turn. But, I hope to get to know some folks here.
Hello FirstMoon,
I'm sorry you've felt so alone up to this point but I'm glad you found this forum so that hopefully you can find some of the kind and compassionate support you deserve to help you along as you work to heal the things you struggle with.
With support,
Activist Ally
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Hi there,
I'm not going to give out my real name, but I am very new to all of this and am wanting to start my recovery process as soon as possible.
I'm feeling a lot of conflicted things. I blame myself. Some moments I don't. I go through the what ifs and wonder if I'll ever return to normalcy. I'm looking to find others who can relate to my story and take their advice...and to not feel so alone.
Anyways, I'm a 24 year old female and love riding horses, hiking with my dog, and hanging out with my friends and family. I'm also a recent college grad!
Forgive me if this isn't a great introduction. I'm still processing this situation and forum.
Hi there and welcome to AS!
It's great that you didn't give your name as we keep anonymous here for internet safety sake! Smart thinking!
I think you're very wise to want to start your recovery as soon as possible and I think your positive attitude that healing is possible is wonderful!!! It sounds like you have some super interests that are actually quite healthy and healing - being outdoors, exercise, and time with faithful animal friends.
I thought you had a great introduction and I look forward to seeing you around the boards!
All strength to you,
Activist Ally
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I'm really glad to have stumbled upon this website. Not really sure what to put about myself here other than I'm a second year college student. Also I havent ever shared my story before but I really hope to share it soon. I feel this is the safest place to start. And thank you to everyone that takes the time to read this. I appreciate knowing there is a support system here
Hi there and welcome to AS!
I'm glad you found us too! I am glad you have reached out here to break the silence about what happened to you. I hope this will be a safe and supportive place to help you on your way to healing and having the life you want after surviving what you have endured!
With support,
Activist Ally
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Hi All,
I just wanted to come to this forum to introduce myself. I'm 18 years old, and I'm a freshman in college. I have a lot of amazing friends, and I would say I'm outgoing, but I have always been a pretty private person about my feelings and my personal life. I don't feel comfortable talking about what happened to my friends, or anyone for that matter. However, I've been thinking about what happened to me a lot lately, and I think this might be the best way for me to begin to come to terms with my feelings about it.
I'm still a little anxious to share my story and talk about it, but it looks like there are a lot of supportive members here, and that makes me feel better. I'm looking forward to finding a support system and hopefully becoming a part of others' support systems as well.
Hi Swansfield,
Welcome to AS! I'm glad you found us but I'm sorry you went through something that makes you belong here. I hope you'll find that the members of AS will walk beside you in support every step of the way on your healing journey!
Strength to you,
Activist Ally
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Hello everyone--
Just wanted to say hello and say what's up. I was referred here by my therapist, who doesn't currently have any groups that I can attend. Looking forward to having an outlet, as I am in a new area, and while I have some well-maintained long-distance friendships to keep me going, there aren't so many people to talk to about this in my life right now. And I'm kind of a talker.
I was only able to begin getting real help starting last August (because of insurance and financial reasons), and after a few months of deep digging, repressed memories started bubbling up. So, here I am. This is very new--in other words, I didn't really understand that I was a survivor until a couple months ago, and I didn't really understand what kind of survivor I was until a couple weeks ago. I am reeling from it, truth be told.
Currently so overwhelmed by the massive readjustments that these memories have required of me that I can do little else other than the work I'm doing in therapy. Which of course is creating some serious problems in my professional life. So there's that. Trying to be a decent dad and husband while dealing with all of this is about as much as I am capable of right now.
Anyway, thanks for having me—looking forward to doing what I can to help whenever I can.
Hello and welcome to AS!
I hope you find this website helpful in supporting you as you go through all of this overwhelming stuff on the way to healing!
With support,
Activist Ally
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Hello everyone, I'm a new member here. You can call me Nova, it's an internet handle, so no worry, it's not my real name
I'm twenty-nine years old, and as odd as it may sound, I'm actually looking forward to getting active in this form. I'm a survivor who's never spoken out, so this is all new and terrifying for me. Don't be surprised if I need some hand holding through things, but I plan on doing my best, that's all I can do really.
Hi Nova,
I'm glad you feel AS (After Silence) can be helpful and that you're looking forward to getting active here! It's understandable that it would be a little scary at first but don't worry, we'll hold your hand as long as it takes for you to find your feet here.
With support and welcome,
Activist Ally
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hello i am new in this site, i hope to learn how used this forum. I really need to talk about this whith someone that understand me since 1 month
Hello,
Good to see you and welcome to AS (After Silence)!
I think you'll be able to find some people to talk to who understand here as we're all survivors. Just think of us as walking beside you in support as you travel your healing path.
With support,
Activist Ally
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Hi Everyone.
I am new to the site and just wanted to say hi. It has been three years since my experiences and although I am doing great I feel that it would be helpful to have some people to talk to about everything.
Hi Somethingfishy,
I would like to welcome you to AS (After Silence) and let you know we are here to support you as you work through things.
With support,
Activist Ally
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Hey, just wanted to let everyone know I started with a therapist last week after keeping this secret for so long. It felt really good to finally start talking about all these terrible feelings I've had basically my whole life. I'm going to keep going and I just wanted to thank everyone here for their support and encouragement. It's weird. Ever since revealing this awful secret, I've actually been sleeping better and looking forward to every day. Of course, dealing with this is as hard as it has ever been, but for the first time, I feel like there is a way out. Everything is getting better. Thank you all and best of luck in your own journeys.
Welcome to AS (after silence) and I wish you good luck with your therapy too!
Activist Ally
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Hi everyone,
I'm new here and am eager to begin the healing process after four years of denial. Not completely sure what that process will look like, or really what "healed" looks like in the end, but I think it's about time to began to find out. I look forward to meeting you all and learning how to be as supportive to others here as everyone else I've seen post.
I'm a little nervous about being in the right place or not, but I hoping to make some friends, so please message me! I'm a teen who loves hiking, reading, yoga, and playing guitar (country, rock, and the best band of all time, Rush) for starters.
Talk soon!
Mailee
Hi Mailee and welcome to AF (After Silence)!!!
I'm glad you've reached out for support here and I hope you find it a kind place full of compassion as you discover for yourself what healing means for you and what it will look like for you.
Wishing you much support..
Activist Ally
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Thank you, ActivistAlly. I truly appreciate that. Those are my same hopes and I'm sure they'll be realized.
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Hi CherokeeRose,
I'm sorry that you went through that terrible crime. You sound so brave and strong. I wish it had never happened to you, but I'm really glad you found us and I hope that you can find some of the kind support that you deserve from the members here.
With support,
Activist Ally
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Hello, everyone!
I don't know if anyone will remember me, since it's been a few years since I last posted, but I'm Leah, and I stopped posting a while back because I hit a busy/good patch in my life where I was handling things outside of the forum.
I am a 12 year survivor of CSA and I've come a long way since I joined After Silence. When I joined the forum, I had just started therapy and I wanted a place to talk to other survivors. Now, I'm no longer regularly going to therapy, I'm almost 21, and I'm in college. I've entered a relationship for the first time with an amazing guy who helps me so much and tries his best to understand when I'm having a rough time.
Some new, fun stuff about me: I love Paramore and Green Day, playing ukulele, writing (I'm majoring in English and minoring in Professional Writing), I'm a feminist, and I love hockey, specifically the Montreal Canadiens!
Without therapy being a regular event, I find myself falling into rough patches every so often. I remembered the amazing support I got here when I was regularly posting and thought I'd give it a go again
I can't promise daily postings because of my business with school and such, but I'd love to help others who are new to this healing journey as well as learn from others.Thanks for reading, and I hope I can get to know some new faces and be re-introduced to some familiar ones!
-Leah
Welcome back Leah!
It is exciting to read some of the fun new things you are doing and that it seems you have come far on your healing journey.
You bet that we members of AS will be here to help support you as you go even further ahead and we gladly appreciate the support and inspiration you can offer us too!
So good to see you again!
Activist Ally
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Well, i don't know where to start, so i might as well begin by saying it has been years since I've felt true happiness, and i'm a little too young to be experiencing that, in my opinion. I'm not about to explain my whole story here in the introduction section, for obvious reasons, but let's just say i was diagnosed with depression when i was 13 i believe.
It has only gotten worse.
I've yet to meet my biological family, suffered from bullying and abuse, then, the last straw; rape.
That's all i needed to drive me completely insane. But i'm absolutely glad i found a forum that supports sexual harassment victims and rape victims. It is like a dream come true, therapy is not the same, neither is having a psychologist. I like the idea of bonding with others who are alike me.
Anyways, my name is Aneta, and i'm 18 years old from Chicago
Hopefully i stay active on here and meet new people.
Hello Aneta and welcome to AS (After Silence)
May I say, you're not just a new member but a very important person? I'm sorry to hear of all the abuse and sexual violence that you've gone through.
It wasn't fair, you never deserved those crimes, and it was not your fault. You know, I don't think you're insane, I think you've lived through some insane situations and you're dealing with it the best way you can.Please let myself or any of the Newbie Support Team (NST) members know if you need anything, and once again, welcome! I hope the members of AS will walk with you every step of the way as you walk towards healing and recovery.
All strength to you,
Activist Ally
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Hello, I'm new to the site and have recently started exploring the internet tryin to find a site like this one where I can belong to a community of people who can relate to the pain I've been dealing with for years. I was sexually assaulted when I was 17 by someone who I thought was a friend and raped at 24 by someone I was seeing at the time. Although these things happened years ago, I still suffer from flashbacks. I also suffer from depression and two different forms of anxiety. I have been in therapy for a total of six years on and off and continue to see one to this day. I am glad this site exist and I hope to benefit from the live chats.
Hi aloneallthetime
Welcome to AS (After Silence)!!! I'm glad you found us but I'm sorry for the reasons that brought you here...
I've very sorry to hear of the things you went through and that you are suffering from what sounds like PTSD flashbacks and anxiety. I'm glad you are getting therapy as that can be a really helpful component of many survivors journey to recovery.
I hope you find AS to be a kind and supportive place where you can get some of the kind understanding you deserve to help you as you walk your healing path and I trust you'll find that your fellow survivors will be behind you every step of the way!
Strength to you,
Activist Ally
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Hello,
Not sure what to say really...I'm here for a few different reasons, acceptence, validation, comarderie, this seems like on ok place. I don't know, for a while I didn't think I would ever need/want to join a place like this (there are reasons for that) and I'm a bit...nervous. I'm here as both a Survivor and Supporter, the realities and aftermath of abuse (in many forms) are sadly not unknown to me in more ways than one.
I hesitate to say much more in an introduction, so for now I'll just say thank-you to this place of support for even existing.
Hello,
Welcome to AS (After Silence)!!!
I'm sorry that you have need for a site like this but I'm glad that you've found us and I hope that you will find acceptance, validation, and friendship here in a kind and supportive way.
Activist Ally
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Just wanted to start I've been suffering for so long with anger and shame. It's easy to say it's not my fault but I don't live it. What can I do? I finally told someone what happened to me when I was 9 for the first time today. Not sure how she's processing it then I joined this to find some help. I've been alone with this for so long. I just want to overcome my pain and hope I can find help
Welcome JJA,
I'm sorry that what happened to you happened but I can say with certainty that it was not your fault. I hope you can find help too.
With support,
Activist Ally
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Hi all,
Glad I found this place....... "Finally" starting to process a rape that happened almost 20 yrs ago, hate going through the emotional turmoil of it----- even this delayed. I know PTSD can occur any time....... Just strange how out of the blue it hit me a few months back. I'm married with 2 kids, and my relationship with my husband is starting to become affected. (We see a therapist every other week, I see one weekly).
Hello Ekmhowe,
I'm glad you found this place too and I want to extend a warm welcome to AS (After Silence)!
It's okay...it sometimes takes many years to start the process of healing and it's okay to go at your own pace. I think you will find others who will be able to identify with your experiences here. Also, I'm glad to hear that you are getting support from therapy in person too!
I hope you'll find AS to be a supportive component of your healing plan and that we can be of help as you move ahead.
With support,
Activist Ally
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Just saying Hi! I live in NC and am interested in giving and receiving support.
Hi Butterflyluv!
Great to see you here and a warm welcome to AS (After Silence)!!!
I appreciate all the support you can give and I hope you'll find tons of kind caring support here from all our wonderful members!
Activist Ally
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Hi Sweets!
I'm happy you are appreciative of this site, it is awesome isn't it?
No...you aren't strange, weird, or crazy and sadly you are right that there are many others out there that have been through similar things as you have. You aren't alone! Thank you for taking the time to post a little about yourself here!
With support,
Activist Ally