It is too late to get the 4 little ones back. I could not get my mental health in control so I lost them. I had appeals but felt it was better to let go and allow them to move on with their lives. I wanted them but I wanted what was best for them and at that time it was best for them to be adopted out then for me to keep fighting and losing in the courts and letting them be in limbo not being able to settle down and stabilize their own lives. that was the least i could do i guess. i want them to have better than what i had and what i could provide. though i love them dearly that was what i had