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Upset has turned to anger!
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Hi all,
I hope everyone is keeping well.
I've never actually posted in a forum before, despite two experiences happening to me. Weirdly enough, I see one of the times more "severe" than the other - perhaps because it was the first time and the one I seem to recall the most? Probably because it was on my 18th birthday.
Recently, I've had the overwhelming feeling to express what has happened to me with other survivors/those who will listen. I've shared the real story of this experience with little others, so this is a big step. I've never truly dealt with what happened as it was only about 2 years ago that I realised what had actually happened (it has now been about 5 years) and, most importantly, that it wasn't my fault/because I was easy/put myself in that situation/etc.
I do get flashbacks of what happened, reminding me of the feeling of having no control. It's scary and I do feel alone with it despite having confided early on in my relationship with my boyfriend of almost 4 years. I just want it to all go away and to confront the abuser (he was an acquaintance when it happened). If anyone has any advice they can share, I would be very grateful.
Thank you very much.