Just Saying Hello

[Stuckat12]

Hi everyone,

Just getting on here to read around and make some changes in my life. I am a survivor of sexual abuse during my childhood.

I have never been able to talk to anyone about the trauma of my past. Not for lack of people willing to listen but for lack of my ability to put into words my feelings. I have felt ashamed for many years now, I was abused starting at about 10 till i was 12 by a family member. It has molded my life. I wish so much that I could break free from the pain and emotions of it. I have had so many problems in my life that stem from my abuse. At this point in my life I am going through a divorce, it kills me inside to know that it is my fault that I am in this position, it angers me that i was abused and that has hurt my ability to have a healthy marriage. I love my wife but I have fears that I cant even place that have caused me to push her away. I am to the point of wanting to curl up and die.

This Is hard for me to express, if you knew me in person you would never guess I carry so much anguish and pain. For years I have pushed people away and hurt those closest to me. I am at the point that its time to change this. I feel like giving up. I have so many emotions in my mind that I can not even process them anymore. I feel like I am crawling out of my skin. I know if I don't start to talk this out that I will end up broken and alone. I hope to get a better understanding of why I feel the way that I do. Most of all I need someone that has been there to help me.

Thanks for reading this, I hope that I can grow with the help of this community.

Stuckat12

[dodo]

Hi and welcome to AS

There is so many here that understand what you are going through

best wishes

karen

[sisterinsurvival]

Hi Stuckat12,

My name is Lynn, and I am a member of the New Member Support Team. I just wanted to take the time to say welcome to After Silence.

I hope that you find comfort and support here, and I am glad that you have joined with us . I look forward to getting to know you. If you need anything or have questions about the boards or how something works, please send me a personal message. I will gladly help in any way possible...also if you need someone to listen, let me know.

Take care,

Lynn

[~FOUND~]

Hi there.

Welcome to AS.

I hope you find this site to be helpful.

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[OverNightDecision]

Hello and welcome to AS!

You'll sure find many supportive people around here.

Look forward to seeing you around.

Take care

-OND

[whimsical1]

hi stuckat12.

[danni]

Hi and welcome to A.s

[Tiang]

Welcome!

[~FOUND~]

I hope you are finding your way around the boards ok.

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[Stuckat12]

Wow. Thanks you all so much. Its nice to have some ears to listen to me, i have felt alone with this for many years now. Thanks for the warm welcome.

[~FOUND~]

Wow. Thanks you all so much. Its nice to have some ears to listen to me, i have felt alone with this for many years now. Thanks for the warm welcome.

AWWWW anytime hun. Here for you.

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