FindingLaura Posted October 16, 2006 Share Posted October 16, 2006 Hi, First of all thank you so much for this site and for this message board. My name is Laura and I'm 18 years old. I like to say that I'm a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, but here of late I've realized I'm not sure how much of a true survivor I am anymore. Your stories are all so inspiring and full of strength that I'm not certain I have. My father molested me until about the age of 4, when I some how found the courage to tell a daycare teacher. The abuse was so long ago and so short lived that it seems small in comparison to that of others. For so long afterwards I just wanted to be a normal kid...I didn't want to talk about it and I convinced myself that I had put it behind me. But now I think I may have only been in denial about the pain and anger for all these years. I'm beginning to see the self-destruction in my behavior and to understand that, while my conscience has tried to push it away, the abuse and everything with it has really remained a part of me. Sorry for my rambling on. But I thank you so much for this board. Even though I told, he was never punished, the case was sealed, and as I've begun to realize all these things it once again has felt like a big, dirty secret. I admire all of you here and truly can't express how thankful I am to have found this site. With Lots of Love and Caring, -Laura Link to post
kfitzge2 Posted October 16, 2006 Share Posted October 16, 2006 Hi, Welcome to AS!! I just recently joined and was too so thankful to have found such a supporting group! I hope you can find it a place where you can feel protected and allow yourself to begin to heal. We are all in it together! take care Sarah Link to post
dodo Posted October 16, 2006 Share Posted October 16, 2006 Hi and welcome to AS best wishes karen Link to post
drowning000 Posted October 16, 2006 Share Posted October 16, 2006 hey hun and welcome along.. Hope you are able to heal here, its a fantastic board... and it doesnt matter what happend, when or by who.. we are all here to hear and understand each others pain and happiness.. so dont ever feel like your story is insignificant!! Link to post
Unsure Posted October 16, 2006 Share Posted October 16, 2006 Denial only lasts so long. Addressing the past can be extremely difficult. Everyone's story is different, no matter the degree or time-span of the abuse it has an impact on the rest of your life. You were so young. This site is very supportive. I hope you find peace and can begin to heal. Link to post
achick18 Posted October 18, 2006 Share Posted October 18, 2006 I am so sorry your father did that to you....I think they should have done something about that honestly, but they are stupid. I hope things get better for you. You are very special I hope you know that. Be strong.... Link to post
sakotta Posted October 19, 2006 Share Posted October 19, 2006 Hi Laura Welcome, I too am new here and so far everyone has been so supportive! I am sorry about what happened to you if you ever need to chat I am willing to listen sakotta Link to post
1(laya)heart Posted October 23, 2006 Share Posted October 23, 2006 (edited) Hi Laura, Check you out!!! Even at 4 you were strong and brave. I also am new to the site and am so thankful for everyone being here to support us. Please know that one act of abuse is too much and that one act matters tremendously. You matter. You'll get the support that you need here. I know because am getting stronger by the posts. Welcome aboard honey. Edited October 23, 2006 by 1(laya)heart Link to post
sonnet Posted October 30, 2006 Share Posted October 30, 2006 hi hun, welocme to the site Link to post
Butterflyangelbaby Posted November 8, 2006 Share Posted November 8, 2006 Welcome to As Glad to have you here Link to post
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