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[unseenedelweiss]

Hi everyone - I feel like I desperately need support from others who understand. I didn't even remember this happened to me until recently & I feel like I've been losing my mind - did it actually happen? Is my brain playing tricks on me? It's like I know it did.... but I can't comprehend it.

No one in my life knows. I don't think I can ever come forward. Just hoping that through talking here I might be able to find the courage & strength I feel like I really need right now.

Thanks for reading - sending virtual hugs to everyone.

[MeBeMary]

Hi unseendelweiss,

Welcome to AfterSilence. I am so sorry that you are coming to a realization and are having problems processing it. Sadly, this is not uncommon to not remember or not acknowledge what happened. Trauma is a very difficult thing to, as you perfectly said, comprehend. The questions and the self-doubt mess with our minds as we try to come to terms with what actually happened. I'm sorry you are going thru this.

I don't know the average, but I think it may be 50/50 for those survivors who actually confide in someone that they've been abuse...far less even, those who report and try to find justice within the court system. It shouldn't be this way, but the world just makes it difficult for those who did nothing wrong. 

You found a very supportive community. You will find the members here are so understanding and kind, and even if there is no one you have right now RL, you do have a support system here, with us. 

I am glad you found the courage to reach out. Look around and reach out more as you feel comfortable to. I wish you the very best on this path we call healing.

Mary

[awi]

Hi friend.  Welcome to this safe place of healing.  Know that you are not alone.  Healing is possible.  I believe you.

[WolfMoon]

Welcome on AS, I'm so sorry for what happened to you, it wasn't your fault. I hope you'll feel our support here, we are here for you ❤️

[systemsb]

Welcome to as and welcome to your healing journey. It's not uncommon for people to block out trauma and remember it later. You are not alone. Here for you