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[brokenone82]

Hello new to the group , I was sexual abused for 6 years from my older sister .  Ny mother constantly  verbally , emotionally and physically  abused me. This is my first time saying it , im trying to heal. My wife is leaving me due to how I have treated her , I have ptsd , social anxiety and I suffer from depression,  I have hated myself for over 30 years  for feelings of guilt and not being good enough. I ruined my marriage with my insecurities and ruminating thoughts

[TrappedbyMyPast]

I'm so sorry to hear this @brokenone82nobody ever knows how things will affect them in aftermath or how it will affect others. I myself I'm trying to forgive myself for what was done to me and how I let what was done to me change my heart to cold and mean for 10 years...its not easy to live with all the pain and guilt inside for so long but it's not healthy to keep ahold of it...and it's hard to open about it as well. Dont give up we are with you in support ❤🙏 #healingtogether #staystrong #victimtovictorious #warriorsnotworthless 

[MeBeMary]

Hi brokenone,

Welcome to the community. I am very sorry for the trauma you've endured when you were so young. It was not deserved or fair to you. Family should be a safe and comforting place for everyone, I'm sorry you were denied that. 

I'm sorry the struggles you endure in present day has caused issues with your marriage. It can sometimes be difficult being in a relationship, when we still feel the effects of what happened. I'm sorry this is the case with you and your wife. 

We are glad you decided to join and are reaching out to us. This community has many understanding and supportive people. You are not alone. 

Wishing you the best as you continue to move forward on this twisting and sometimes path, we call healing. 

Mary

[SociallyAwkward]

I’m so sorry that you feel you ruined your marriage due to your issues, but to be fair marriage is suppose to be a joint effort between two people. Don’t blame yourself completely. Unfortunately sometimes things just don’t work out between two people. My mom still talks to my dad almost like they are friends. Which is weird considering what he put her through. People are strange and relationships can be complicated. Sometimes too complicated for words.

i hope we can help you with whatever you may need.