New and trying to figure my life out

[sam72173]

I have been through a lot in my life.  It would probably be easier to tell what I haven't been through.  I am almost 50 and my adoptive mom died in December 2022 leaving me without any of my parents.  I am just now seriously trying to deal with everything.  In a weird way, that I don't really understand, her leaving is freeing me to face all the pain.

I don't have many friends and I don't think I know how to be social or a good friend.  I guess I just need a safe place to share things and try to figure things out.  I am in therapy right now working with CPT and a grief counselor.  

I have 4 cats and 4 dogs including fostering my sisters dog.  My adult niece and I share the house we live in. 

[Six_times_seven]

Hi @sam72173 I am sorry that you have experienced loss and pain.  There are many here who will relate to your experiences.  

   

[Capulet]

Welcome to AS, @sam72173 - I am sorry for the circumstances that have led you here, but am truly glad you have decided to consider AS to be a stop in your healing journey.  Like Six has said, there are many here who share in your feelings and who are also trying to figure things out.

Wishing you all the best.

- Cap

[Dawn76]

@sam72173 welcome to AS. I am so sorry for the loss you have had, and for the reasons that have brought you here. You aren't alone.  There are so many supportive people here that understand how you are feeling. I hope you find it helpful to be here. 

 

[physicsgirl]

@sam72173 hello. Welcome to AS. There are many supportive people here.

[MeBeMary]

Hi there, Sam, and welcome.

I am very sorry for the traumas you've endured in your lifetime. None of it was fair or deserved. You have found a supportive community with many understanding and kind members. You are not alone.

It's not strange to be confused or have mixed feelings about the death of your adoptive mom. Tho trauma is never so easy to face and being worried or frightened by a reaction of someone close to you is a reality for many. With her passing, it literally does free you up from at least that worry. I do not wish the pain and struggles on anyone, but this may allow you to take steps that you weren't able to before. 

I am glad you decided to reach out, Sam. I hope you find this community another safe and healing place to be to help you continue your journey in healing.

Best wishes to you.

Mary

[sam72173]

Thank you everyone!

 

Edited June 13, 2023 by sam72173

[missfrier]

Dear Sam 

 

Welcome to After Silence. I am sorry to hear of the trauma you have been through!

Im sorry for your lose 

 

Being here has helped me so much. Everyone is so caring and supportive here. I am proud of you for reaching out. I know that is hard to do. I also know that you will find that needed compassion and support here within our community. Know we are here for you and we will listen whenever you would like to lean on us.    

 

Take care and please do not hesitate to ask for any help if you ever need it.  

[awi]

 things will get better. awi

Edited July 2, 2024 by awi